hello everyone.. i created this account when i was in a really bad place. i was very confused, i didnt really know who i was personally and i feel i was a bit immature. its only been a year but i think now that ive dealt with this for so long ive grown up a bit. ive neglected this account, i didnt think anyone would really see it or think anything of it. i havent really thought about it for a while either.. and im sorry for that. ive logged into the account for the first time in literally a year, and i have messages. people asking to talk about their stories, or people just wanting to talk to me about whats happened. and im very sorry that i was not here to message back. i feel that now (even though i still go into very dark places) i am much better and im at a state where i can help and talk to people. i am not 100% clean, i still feel like life is worthless sometimes, i still have days where i hate myself, but now i have days where i love myself. i have taught myself to quiet the angry thoughts and to tell myself i am beautiful even if i have to lie. because i am, and so are you. so now i am back, and i will hopefully stay. im not sure if i will actually do the "journal" as i would call it, maybe if enough people want it, but i AM here to talk. please, message me if you need someone there for you. talk to me about your problems, if youre sad or feel you will relapse or if you already have, talk to me if youre happy and feeling extra confident that day, tell me a beautiful poem that always makes you smile. talk to me. im here for you. i hope i can help some people along the way.
love you all(:
-S.I.