Dri's

It's been a year!!

dark

You're beautiful.

You are my person.

Ringing your phone for a call feels like walking at the front porch of a house.. it feels like going back home.

Is it necessary to be hurt first before I fully realize that I'm already in love with you?

You'll always be the lotus in my muddy river.

A dot ends a statement
          But this was where I started
          From a dot, to a line, to a shape
          To letters I soon hated
          
          The A's that built my words
          To Z's, I found the swords
          Stabbing the heart of my own
          Aching, from the meanings it shown
          
          How I wish I could use these weapons
          To kill others' nasty opinions
          But with the dot they put as they speak
          They made a point, made me weak
          
          With the single dot I started, but I never used to end
          I wrote only a dot, no words to commend
          The sound it makes is called silence
          The loudest point to adress your pretense.

"Maybe after ten years, all that's left to me is you."
          
          No, honey. After ten years, you'll have the freedom that you've always wanted, together with your success in your profession.
          
          And yes, you'll have me there, giggling at your corny and yet cheesy lines at 2 am while we cuddle.
          
          You always have me, despite the 'maybe'.

I had to blink a few times
          To suppress my raging thoughts
          My realizations swirling in my head
          Questions like bubbles in a good bath
          
          I had to blink a few times
          Doubting the reality
          Letting it sink in
          I was dazed in a sweet dream
          
          I had to blink a few times
          Not to hide the tears
          Not to hide the pain
          Not to hide the sadness
          
          I just want to erase the messages 
          Creeping behind my irises
          They don't need to be visible
          Don't wanna be naked, vulnerable
          
          I had to blink a few times.