Anya

Yo i have a manz

y'all..
          
          i am SO sorry for the way i was the past 3 yrs
          i was 13 when i joined
          so i was dumb asf
          turning 16 in a month though, didn't think i'd make it this far.
          
          if y'all still wanna rp, PLEASE don't be afraid to say it, also a lot has changed ever since the pandemic started. not only have i matured a lot more, i've gotten so much worse, but after that SO much better mentally. physically is still an ish, but it's fine.
          
          anyways, last year i came out as transmasc, so i go by Andrew and he/him pronouns. my 'look' has also really changed, and i will be putting my insta in my bio. for the rest i've just gotten a lot better at replying in roleplay's too, and i rp animes and Fnaf Security Breach too now. so yeah.
          
          how abouttt you guys text me, and we can catch up, or just immediately start a new rp. do that please.

Happy Easter!!
          
          It's almost 3 am here and i'm preparing a nice breakfast for my family! :) the only sad thing, is that my boyfriend is leaving for a week and will have 0 signal. That means 7 days without him. That means 168 hours without him. That means 10.080 minutes without him. That means 604.800 seconds without him. That makes me kinda sad, so i will make something for him that will take 7 days, so i can show it to him when he gets back. :) again, happy easter and enjoy the time you get to spend with family and friends.

Be me:
          
          - eat all day
          - sleep all day
          - depressed
          - finds booze and decides to drink it all in one night
          - get drunk for the first time and ruin someone's live stream on YouTube by saying stupid shit
          - get the streamer's friend's insta
          - say pick up lines
          - steal his heart
          - make him feel better about himself because he is depressed too
          - try to figure out what to do because he lives all the way in fucken Australia and you live in the Netherlands
          - insist on paying for a flight instead of redoing your childish room of 8 years
          - get convinced by him to not buy a ticket because your room is 'more important than him'
          -cuddle with doggo and pass out

So um...small update of how my granddad died...I'm Irish, and so is my older brother, our 4 younger siblings come from our stepdad, so my brother and i basically had like, 2 families. our mom is dutch and our dad is irish. my granddad was irish, and whenever he wasn't doing great, my mom informed me and my brother about it, but last friday, i was the first one to know about his death, and then i posted the long message below. later in the evening, my mom, my brother and i sat at the table, and my mom added that my granddad did not only have Cancer, but also Diabetes and sadly......also Corona..and because he was already very old and sick, he wouldn't have stood a chance against those sicknesses...so..also if i don't reply for a while, don't ask me if i died of corona because that's just- no. in the beginning, some of the memes were funny, but now i just don't joke about that, it's very hard to deal with now.

So...for any of you wondering...why i'm not replying to you......i just heard that my granddad passed away yesterday..not from Corona or something, but from Cancer....and..i never really lost anyone close to me, but my grnadfather was the closest person to me ever. We were closer than me and my parents. I live in the Netherlands, and my grandfather lives in Ireland. Because of that distance AND because the countries are closed because of Corona, i could not visit and say my goodbye to him. The only time i saw him was when i was just a baby, and last year, the 8th of February. This loss really messed me up big time, i can't stop crying and yelling to myself that it's not fair that he had to die. Like that'll ever bring him back.. what's even worse is that i lost my only picture of him and me as baby in his arms. It means a lot to me and i hate myself for losing it. That isn't even all, i have a lot of homework to do in less than 3 days, and i can't with my mind all over the place and my motivation ruined. I don't know what to do with myself, and i can't help but hear the last thing my granddad said to me last year before i had to leave Ireland. He said; "take good care of yourself, make yourself and others happy, and keep drawing and painting things. I love you." He said that, especially because i was very depressed then, and still am to this day. I love my granddad so so much, and because of his death, i might not be online for a while to try and clear my mind. Again, i'm sorry for not replying to you guys, but i'm just- i really need time to calm down..

i'm in online class, this is so awkward

Oh hey you

GUESS WHO'S F#@%&$# BIRTHDAY IT IS?!?! THIS BIOTCH HEEEEEREEEEE!!!!!

Poli : UwUz 
          
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