RocketK
Created and published a prologue to a new HG fanfiction, concentrated on Johanna Mason, from the events of Catching Fire onwards. Please have a look! :)
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Would anyone read Arcane one-shots and not judge me? o:)
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It's been a year so someone must've watched Arcane: League of Legends series. Where's my fam at? I need to rant!!!!!
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"I could've sworn this was the way
Tell me again, why do we stay on such a lonely,
lonely, lonely, road?
You'd never guess, I'd never know
We're on the same side, and it's going to
Be a lonely, lonely, lonely, road
If I follow you to the river,
send my blues out to the sea.
Will you stay with me forever?
Will you chase me in my dreams?
If I throw it all in the river,
and let the rhythm take the lead.
Will it stay with you whenever,
that you lean on me?
Ooh, I know, I know.
Ooh, I know."
-Daisy Jones & The Six ("The River")
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I have always known that I have struggled with anxiety. Never once did it occur to me that I might also be depressed, despite the fact that I have read that the two usually come together. I am entering 2022 feeling a more damaged than when I entered 2021. I have things that I love, people that I love and that matter to me AND things I wanna do, but there is a part of me that feels indifferent to it all.
I have a lot of work to do on myself. I need to learn how to stand on my own two feet, I have to learn how to properly take care of myself, of my own mental health and acknowledge that the mental and physical health go hand in hand.
That is my goal for 2022. To treat myself better, to be the person I have the potential of being, and to DO what I want to do, not THINK that I want to do it. I have put myself on hold for too long, and now I am getting close to the start of my 30s. I need to make sure that the person I become from here on and out, is the person capable of taking care of herself and live in the moment, because here and now is all we really have.
If you are going through something tough, there is always someone that can help you. Reach out, do it, don't keep it to yourself. I speak from experience when I say, having someone in your corner is much better than going at it alone. Who said you had to handle it all on your own?
I hope we can all do something to make 2022 our best year yet.
Much love,
RK.
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@tippysmom Aww, thank you so much! I have come out stronger on the other side, and even though the anxiety is still there at times, it's smaller and more manageable. Your words were very helpful. (:
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@RocketK So glad to hear you are doing much better..You have won a major victory and have come out stronger on the other side..You will still have to work and fight everyday but it sounds as if you are doing quite well..Congrats on taking your future into your hands and moving,goingback to school and leaving a situation you felt was holding you back..Keep up the great work you have done and I pray you will continue to do well..Take care of yourself and continue the fight..Love yourself and know in your mind and heart that you are worth it.
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@tippysmom - Hi. I was sitting on a bus to work yesterday and for some reason I reflected on my journey, from the moment I wrote this post, till today. I just felt like sharing my journey with you considering how supportive you were for me when I was feeling seriously low. Beginning of 2022, I was severly burnt out. I had been struggling with it for a few months at that point, work being the main source of it, and the constant attempts to keep working made it worse. My last day actually working was a struggle to say the least. I'm sad that that was my last experience on that job, because that job wasn't really that bad (I decided to leave for my own health). At one point I loved it. I went to therapy and then a specialist who diagnosed me with general anxiety and a depressive episode related to that anxiety, and ever since I've worked to identify even the smallest acts that are controlled by my anxiety (such as constantly double-checking things like locked doors, locked cars). The little things lead to the big things, so I did the work in steps. I moved to another city and started going back to school, which has honestly been the best medicine in all this. It has allowed me to grow beyond the constraints I felt was on me back home. School has been great, and my roommates have been amazing. It's a smaller city than where I come from, but I still like it very much. I suppose I came out on the other side. These days there are still those small anxiety-traits that make me double check things, but I know them, I recognize them for what it is, and I have not had a major episode of anxiety in over a year, and that is a grand victory for me. I feel more confident now, more ready for the adult-life and more independent. My anxiety doesn't control me anymore, I control it, and it is the best feeling.
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A teenie-tiny surprise from me on the morning of the December 24th. I decided to just rush out a few one-shots I have written here and there. FOUR one-shots in total have been published in my One-Shot Collection book, so pop over there and have a look.
1 werewolf related story, 3 one-shots in the Star Wars universe, closely related to the event of Episode III, though with fictional main-characters. I do hope you enjoy, so leave me a comment and some love. I do still write, so I hope this is something you enjoy.
To those of you that celebrate Christmas, merry Christmas! :)
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"I wish that heaven had visiting hours
So I could just show up and bring the news
That she's getting older, and I wish that you met her
The things that she'll learn from me, I got them all from you
Could I just stay a while and we'll put all the world to rights?
The little ones will grow and I'll still drink your favorite wine
And soon they're going to close, but I'll see you another day
So much as changed since you been away
I wish that heaven had a visiting hours
So I could just swing by and ask your advice
What would you do in my situation?
I hadn't a clue how I'd even raise them
What would you do? 'Cause you always do what's right
Can we just talk a while until my worries disappear?
I'd tell you that I'm scared of turning out a failure
You'd say "Remember that the answer's in the love that we create"
So much has changed, since you been away.
I wish that heaven had visiting hours
And I would ask them if I could take you home
But I know what they'd say, that it's for the best
So I will live life the way you taught me
And make it on my own
And I will close the door but I will open up my heart
And everyone I love will know exactly who you are
'Cause this is not goodbye it is just 'till we meet again
So much has changed since you been away."
-Ed Sheeran ("Visiting Hours") <3
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"I wake up to the sounds of the silence that allows
For my mind to run around with my ear up to the ground
I'm searching to behold the stories that are told
When my back is to the world that was smiling when I turned
Tell you you're the greatest
But once you turn they hate us
Oh, the misery
Everybody wants to be my enemy
Spare the sympathy
Everybody wants to be my enemy
(Look out for yourself)
My enemy
(Look out for yourself)
But I'm ready
Your words up on the wall as you're praying for my fall
And the laughter in the halls and the names that I've been called
I stack it in my mind and I'm waiting for the time
When I show you what it's like to be words spit in a mic
Tell you you're the greatest
But once you turn they hate us
Oh, the misery
Everybody wants to be my enemy
Spare the sympathy
Everybody wants to be my enemy
(Look out for yourself)
My enemy
(Look out for yourself)"
-Imagine Dragons ft. JID ("Enemy")
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What were people's SpotifyWrapped songs and artists? Let me know! :D
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"Go easy on me, baby
I was still a child
Didn't get the chance to
Feel the world around me
I had no time to choose
What I chose to do
So go easy on me."
-Adele ("Easy On Me")