RockyBeaniex

I am honestly revolted right now. Right, so in search of light, peace and little bit of happiness, i flew to another country in the wake of my birthday. My first time there,  travelled alone, and turns out my taxi driver did not come. I did not have internet access and did not know what to do with my suitcase and me. At that time, a young lady approached me and asked if i needed help. She quickly called her husband to drop me off at the hotel, without taking any money from me. This is inexistent in England.

RockyBeaniex

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@RockyBeaniex So please God, do save her leg. Her whole life has changed in one moment and i'm scared, shocked, horrified because that could have happened to me, to anyone. How the fuck can a freaking step fall off the lift? No damn is given to maintenance?? The good news is that i'm horrified, havent slept, tried to be by her family's side, trying to provide support and nobody is there to take care of me. It has always been the case. You do unfair things God. You really do. 
          	  If i've done at least 0.1 % of good stuff in life, please do give her the fruit of it. 
          	  Else, i will lose faith on you now.
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RockyBeaniex

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So, we remained in touch and i expressed my wish to learn more about Islam. She sought permission for me to enter the mosque with her husband. And since then, we became good friends. People with a heart of gold! 
          	  Now, yesterday, we went to a shopping mall and while she was on the lift with her husband, i was behind, one step of the lift collapsed and her feet were stuck in that lift, which was still running. I panicked and tried to get her feet out of that thing along with the people willing to help. The security did not what to do, the fire fighters were nowhere in sight. What sort of incompetent authority is this! 
          	  Her feet remained stuck for 45 minutes and i felt helpless like a fucking stone, not being able to do anything for the one who has been my only friend here. I watched that horror scene, helpless, scared, and tearful. I watched her feet being churned in front of my eyes... She lost one leg eventually and the second one has also been badly affected. Please pray for her second leg, she is a kind soul who deserves none of this. 
          	  So, eventually, it has been proved that whoever tries to be close to me in any way- friend, family, girlfriend- i eventually lose them. Something bad has to freaking happen. Why? Because i'm the damn curse. Lost my dad, my friends, my mom, my brother, my... It's a never-ending list. I'm this close to being an atheist. I've only seen wrong happening to the good ones. I've always been taught to support the truth, to do good, to be good and good will happen. I've always seen the contrary. No matter how good i do, i have to suffer.
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RockyBeaniex

I am honestly revolted right now. Right, so in search of light, peace and little bit of happiness, i flew to another country in the wake of my birthday. My first time there,  travelled alone, and turns out my taxi driver did not come. I did not have internet access and did not know what to do with my suitcase and me. At that time, a young lady approached me and asked if i needed help. She quickly called her husband to drop me off at the hotel, without taking any money from me. This is inexistent in England.

RockyBeaniex

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@RockyBeaniex So please God, do save her leg. Her whole life has changed in one moment and i'm scared, shocked, horrified because that could have happened to me, to anyone. How the fuck can a freaking step fall off the lift? No damn is given to maintenance?? The good news is that i'm horrified, havent slept, tried to be by her family's side, trying to provide support and nobody is there to take care of me. It has always been the case. You do unfair things God. You really do. 
            If i've done at least 0.1 % of good stuff in life, please do give her the fruit of it. 
            Else, i will lose faith on you now.
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RockyBeaniex

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So, we remained in touch and i expressed my wish to learn more about Islam. She sought permission for me to enter the mosque with her husband. And since then, we became good friends. People with a heart of gold! 
            Now, yesterday, we went to a shopping mall and while she was on the lift with her husband, i was behind, one step of the lift collapsed and her feet were stuck in that lift, which was still running. I panicked and tried to get her feet out of that thing along with the people willing to help. The security did not what to do, the fire fighters were nowhere in sight. What sort of incompetent authority is this! 
            Her feet remained stuck for 45 minutes and i felt helpless like a fucking stone, not being able to do anything for the one who has been my only friend here. I watched that horror scene, helpless, scared, and tearful. I watched her feet being churned in front of my eyes... She lost one leg eventually and the second one has also been badly affected. Please pray for her second leg, she is a kind soul who deserves none of this. 
            So, eventually, it has been proved that whoever tries to be close to me in any way- friend, family, girlfriend- i eventually lose them. Something bad has to freaking happen. Why? Because i'm the damn curse. Lost my dad, my friends, my mom, my brother, my... It's a never-ending list. I'm this close to being an atheist. I've only seen wrong happening to the good ones. I've always been taught to support the truth, to do good, to be good and good will happen. I've always seen the contrary. No matter how good i do, i have to suffer.
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BeYouutyful

Happy Birthday! I can’t believe you’re 25 now. it feels like time has flown by. Hope you have the most wonderful day, surrounded by happiness and all the things that make you smile. May God bless you abundantly and grant all your heart’s desires.
          
          Also, happy birthday from your babies. I know I’m no one to wish you on their behalf, but I’m sure, wherever they are, they’re wishing their daddy a very happy birthday too and can’t wait to be with you someday. I truly hope that dream becomes a reality soon. Your love for them already shines so brightly, and I know they’ll be so blessed to have you as their father someday.
          Here’s to a year full of joy, love, and dreams coming true. To the best papa ever! ♥️

RockyBeaniex

When life gets a lil bit sour & full of problems, i wish i had you to share my problems. Yes, i believe that sharing is caring. But i cannot share with anyone, for i am their strength. They all get their strength from me, and i cannot watch my loved ones suffer. I have to be their lighthouse but God knows how long i'll stand, alone surrounded by the problems.

RockyBeaniex

Leaving you for your happiness is my last gift to you. 
          Even though i still cant process, understand, why you wanted to leave. I was sick at that time. Been sick for three months, i was dealing with health issues. Couldn’t remember my name… And bam, your rejection came in when i began to get better, had started to live again, to remember. I still dont know why you left me, for we were very happy according to me. 
          
          Today marks one year since you officially left me. I hope you like my gift and finally found what you wanted.