Rockythegreater
this message may be offensive
I have a confession to make.
I'm not who I say I am, and I'm sorry.
Back when I made this account, I already had a Wattpad. However, I wanted to have the freedom to write what I wanted, and since everyone close to me (both irl and online) knew about my account already, I was too scared to write things other than my usual. Normal people would make an alt, stay anonymous, but stay themselves and just hope.
For whatever reason, I decided I needed to pretend to be someone I wasn't, so no one could ever guess it was me.
Rocky is an alias of an alias, that is to say, they never existed. Of course, a good chunk of them was me, but another good chunk wasn't. I made up stories, people, and excuses as to why I basically only had Wattpad. I have a lot of social media accounts now, but none of them are under Rocky. Rocky was just for Wattpad, Rocky was for writing things I didn't want my friends to see.
But in curating a new identity, I didn't realize I would still affect other people. I didn't realize people would become friends with Rocky, that Rocky would still be seen as a part of a community. This is why I'm making this post after 5 years. I've been thinking about doing this for a while, but I never wanted to because of the whole reason I made this account and this fake persona in the first place, but when I see the people in my message boards or commenting in my books, I realize I haven't just fooled people into not considering I could be someone else, I fooled people into thinking someone was real. That's fucked up of me, it always was, and I somehow never realized it until recently. I'm sorry to everyone I did this to. I don't know if there's any way I could apologize enough. (1/2)
GummyGirl_Princess
@Rockythegreater thats completely fair, just know that i myself dont believe that most of what you did was bad, i support your decisions and understand the reasoning completely <3
Rockythegreater
@GummyGirl_Princess ig its moreso that I don't even lie about myself that much on my main. Like ofc I keep important things private but I never lied abt them, and I especially never lied abt things that I didn't mind sharing, like pronouns n such. My online life and real life are separate to some degree but I have friends and experiences online I'd consider as influential to me as my irl counterparts. I already had a sona online, my main issue I think is just making another one and pretending like it was the first to other people. Feels kinda like fleeing a country and getting a fake ID. That and the experiences. I get what you're saying tho, I do think anonymity on the internet is important, you always have the choice on what to share and I'm sure there's plenty more ppl out there like me. I just personally don't feel good abt doing this the way I have all this time.
GummyGirl_Princess
@Rockythegreater i personally dont see a problem with what you did. Its barely different to what so many people do. Lying about experiences isnt great but pretending to be someone else online? Thats normal. I do that. Obviously my name isnt actually gummy, its all part of being safe on line, and i dont think you need to feel guilty for keeping your online life and real life seperate <3
