Romione33

So idk if you all will care but...my best friend totally ditched me and doesn't care to talk to me anymore so yay.

I might call 988; I'm not sure yet. My mental health is not the best right now everyone.

I'm not writing this because I want people to pity me; I just want people to why I am the way I am. Love you all.
          Truthfully, the reason I'm depressed is this. I love my life; I love living. But I've been treated so poorly in my life, treated horribly by the people I thought were my friends, been ignored, made fun of, laughed at, talked about behind my back, felt replaceable, felt like people secretly don't like me, feel like no one really cares about hearing about my life, even my own family doesn't like me (other than my mom, dad, and maternal grandparents they care a lot about me and I love them.). I don't want to die, I don't self harm; I love God, and I know He will help me. I just want people to care about me; I feel alone, and I want to cry but I can't sometimes. I have a fear of failure, fear of being forgotten, fear of being ignored, and I've been emotionally and mentally abused by people I thought were my friends, but I will keep going and trusting in God. He will comfort me and I will love everyone no matter what they did to me.
          I guess I'm just a dreamer, wishing for a fairytale ending. One day maybe it'll happen, I just got to take it one step at a time, one day at a time. Trusting in God; overcoming obstacles. Am I tired of being treated poorly, being ignored, feeling unimportant, yes, but I will keep fighting. I don't know if anyone will read this but I just need to vent. Do I get depressed, yes. Feel like I'm the 'replaceable one in a friendship', yes. Feel like people don't really like me, yes. But I'm luckier than most and I will keep going. Is it hard, yes, but life isn't easy. It kicks you down, beats you up, and doesn't care about how you feel, but it's the truth. Life is hard, it's a jerk, but it doesn't give up. I won't let it conquer me; I will survive. I won't give up and I always will stay a child inside. I want a boyfriend but he will come, I will never ever give up hope.

@Romione33
          Here's a pdf of Stellarlune if you want it (it's not a fake link, I promise)
          
          https://simonandschusterpublishing.com/downloadables/stellarlune-exclusive.pdf

Happy New Year Everyone!! May it be prosperous and wonderful!

I just finished Legacy. Yay! But the book nearly killed me and I'm annoyed at Fitz, Sophie, Oralie, and Forkle. I feel like Sophie has double standards because she wouldn't mind ruining Bronte's councilor career but not Oralie's for the fact that she likes her better. Fitz is frustrating because he broke up with Sophie for a stupid reason. And Oralie is being extremely selfish. Plus, the fact that Keefe's now in "restful wakeness" and the only person I'm not annoyed at is Linh, Elwin, Ro, Sandor, Calla, Keefe, Dex, Grady and Edaline.
          
          So, I totally can't wait to read the novella of Unlocked and not want to chuck it at the wall once I finish the guide part. I'm really concerned about my sanity.
          
          Sorry about this, but I just really needed to rant.

I want to wish you all a very merry Christmas as I won't be on here for the next 2-3 days. Have a wonderful holiday.

I am officially about to go crazy. I am still waiting to get Legacy (Book 8 in Keeper of the Lost Cities). Unfortunately, I'm waiting until Christmas to get it, but that entails me waiting an excruciating two months on a cliffhanger. At least there are only 17 days left until Christmas. 
          
          I also want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa, and a Happy New Year. 
          
          I need some sanity guys; if not I don't think I'll make it. I am so excited for presents, and books!!! 
          
          I really need to read KOTLC and books in general slower. Reading Flashback in 3 days was a horrible idea lol.
          
          Well, let's hope I can cling on to my remainder of patience for the next 2 1/2 weeks! Talk to you all soon!

Sorry. 
          
          There are 8 billion people in the world, and you're one of them.
          
          You're so kind and special because you're my friend, that's why I'm sending this to you.
          
          I want good things to happen to you, so read this...
          
          Now that you've read the beginning, you can't escape this.
          
          You'll get a new phone this year.
          
          You'll get the pet of your dreams this Christmas.
          
          Everyone will love you.
          
          Send this to 15 people in one hour.
          
          If you ignore this, you'll have bad luck for the next three years.
          
          You'll struggle with grades next year.
          
          This isn't fake. A girl ignored this last year, and everything happened to her.
          
          You'll forward this to 15 people in one hour.
          
          Then, in five days, this will happen...
          
          Day 1: You will wake up to a shocking surprise.
          
          Day 2: You will meet your old friend again.
          
          Day 3: You will earn money.
          
          Day 4: Your day will go great.
          
          Day 5: Your favorite person will talk to you.
          
          Don't break the chain.
          
          Sorry!!!!! Someone sent it 2 me, I'm not taking chances

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone! Have a wonderful and happy day full of love, laughter, and joy!