Bailey Rosalez

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I don't know if people will see this, but here's the thing I've been feeling so lost lately, my work is very fun and my friends and family are the best thing in my life. The only thing is that I've been feeling a bit out of touch with them and well I know I just started to work but I have doubts about myself and I have doubts about my friends. My family aren't too bad but I just got the time to spend time with them and I feel like we are connecting again. With my friends Ive been feeling like we aren't there anymore and that I shouldn't have any since school has been taking a lot out of me. I sleep at school out of stress and lack of sleep. I spend my nights worrying about my friends and school. Even having dreams about how they don't like me and the resent me. I want to spend time with them but I get scared to be myself a bit more with them thinking that they would hate me. I tell my sister that she should connect with her friends yet I can't. I'm getting scared that I might go into another black hole but no one will be there to save me except my groups and maybe my family a bit. At work I feel so excluded and I don't know if they want to connect with me or not which scares me. Maybe I'll get fired soon or something. I don't know, but I really need someone to talk to.

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I wish I could be this deep in a talk with someone cause I feel really sad about stuff like this not a lot of my friends, family, and counselor know what's deeply hurting me. I want to be able to love someone like I love myself but it's hard. 

I don't know if anyone's gonna see this but I've been having a hard time trying to figure out my emotions. I don't know if this guy I hate, is actually someone I like. Dude straight up spread a rumor about me and we'll he's been so different. I go to school and he makes me feel scared and jumpy but it's like a nice feeling too. Hes in my head twenty four seven, and I throw him out by saying oh yeah I hate him because of this. It's probably me being paranoid, but I feel like he and his friends watch me or are trying to see the board IDK!! Just Friday I had P.E with him and well I almost bumped into him while turning and cursed under my breath cause he was so close. It's funny but as I hugged my friend twice that day, I looked to my side and made eye contact with him by accident. Sometimes I feel I'm scared to feel my emotions of love or liking so I lock them away. I cry cause I do this but then I tell myself it's better. As I walked to my bus I notice him walking in the same direction when his bus is at the end. I know this cause I went on his bus one day since they changed our bus again that week. As I was going to pass him I walked faster and said under my breath why the f**ck are you going this way. I think that since I feel bad after I say things, that's probably why I get a pang in my heart for doing that. I might just be feeling this, since he's back in my life(classes). I really want to understand him but I know he probably hates or finds me weird. I try to steer clear from him but he's everywhere I go. I love going to the library but he's there. I like my last two classes but he's there too. I feel like he really hates me to the point he would try and hit me with his athletic skills, but I think I just really suck at volley ball. Maybe I'm a weak b**ch to him. If anyone does see this please give me some tips or advice cause I'm on the verge of losing my sh*t.

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