[ Small mini rant ]
So this isn't really a rant, except it kinda is...? I guess I just want to get a few things off my chest somewhere where many people won't care. My dad was recently telling me how most of my extended family members havn't been paying back their loans to us, of which (totaled altogether) is nearly or over $30,000. They always seem to be giving excuses as to why they cant pay, but they also always seem to be going out to eat, doing other things, or vacationing; not enough money, you say? And it infuriates me. How cant my family care enough to pay my dad back when he's always been there for them during any and every situation? Now, I have an awful fear of being used, forgotten, abandoned, and... it frightens me. Because its happened before. A old friend of mine I've known for years left my state, and never even bothered to keep in contact with me. Why, I wouldn't know. But that is a minor application as to what my dad's ( and basically my nuclear family )going through. I am so terrified for my future. I do not want to be used by others for their own benefit, I don't want to be picked up then thrown away... Apparently its going to escalate, and I fear for all my family members. I don't know, I mean... I have no idea what to think of even my own tios, tias -- even my cousins....
There
I think that's it
Over and out.
\-| The Black Rose |-/