Rose_and_Thorns3

wow... I haven't been here in a while... but, I'm baaaaaaaack! and I'm gonna start wringing a new poetry book shortly, so... when I get the first one posted I wanna know what you think

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It's funny how one day you can just start hating someone you've known your entire life... How you can start hating the people that raised you... How you finally see the kind of person they are and suddenly you realize you don't want them to have anything to do with you. It's sad, I am so afraid that I'm going to become just like them, make my children feel like they're nothing and that it's their fault, not mine... I'm afraid I'm gonna become just like them, make my spouse hate me enough that he wouldn't even want to be in the room next to the one I'm in. It's painful, I've been growing up in a toxic environment since 4th grade and yet I still can't leave. Everyday I wake up and I can feel the empty hole in my chest... It burns and it grows larger every time. Everyday I have to listen to complaints and no one cares how I feel, no one knows how I feel, I don't know how to speak up and tell them that I am in pain... Mentally and emotionally, which sometimes makes it feel like physical pain too. Everyday I'm tempted to ask a friend to come pick me up and get me out before anyone notices I left, but they always notice... Because they gaurd the exit. But today is the one day I'm left alone in this house, and I am ready to pack my suitcase and run.