Just me ranting here
I notice that i absent more than i did last year and it's not good, my parents is disappointed by it and i always find excuses to avoid confronting from my close classmates and friends or more like i avoid them.
I dont know... i don't have a valid reason on why would i shut myself from everyone, am i going at a phase? Am i introvert? Or im slowly turning like the others who's just a burden, pathetic, get addicted to gadgets and useless for not be able to graduate to help her parents have a better life ( hope not )
Everyday i feel heavy, not wanting to go out to socialize with others but once im outside i feel energetic (or im just faking it so i wont look rude?) but when im home i feel comfortable, im just lazing around and not doing anything except using my cp, nothing to worry, just relaxing and the idea going outside is frustrating
I feel guilty of the fact im avoiding my responsibility and being a coward for confrontation. I know it's new year, new better me not a worse one... Do i just need someone's to push me forward?
But i prefer to not rely on someone i might just depend on them to be always there for me