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Look at me, being tired at 1:22, we’re just gonna  pretend last night never happened! Only got about six and a half hours because of that, woke up a bit past noon, and went to a meal with parents for distant cousins. Good soup. Literally. Then we were driving home around three, and got a flat tire, wooo, it’s upwards of 100 degrees outside, and we’re actually set to be getting a massive heatwave this week, so that was fun. C came and picked us up while we waited for the mechanic to get there and fix the car. While they were doing that, me and C were watching OP, but then after like five episodes or something they got tired so we turned it off and they took a nap. Seeing as I had only woken up about five to seven hours prior, I was still chilling. Two fics updated recently that haven’t in forever, I read one, but the other is a special case so I’ve kinda been procrastinating, but I’ll get to it! Oh boy will I get to it. Then it was ten thirty, and C made quesadillas, then I came over and also made quesadillas, ate nine but couldn’t handle ten and eleven, such a shame. That’s about it. Still really want to play Genshin but keep getting distracted, and then the only time I can is at night, but if I start playing at twelve then when I next look at the clock it’ll be two! I can’t do that. Also have this annoying spot on my finger, which is itchy and bumpy, like hives, I don’t like it. Anyway that’s it, now I’m tired, so sleep. 

A-du, a-du, a-du du du du! A-guess, a-what, a-time it is? … 4:45. It’s four forty five. In the morning. I just heard C’s alarm go off for them to get up for work. Why am I still awake? Well it was ten thirty, and then the bathroom was taken, and I got distracted, and then it was twelve thirty, and I still needed to use the bathroom, so I did, and then it was one thirty, and I realized that I would need to be in bed super soon if I wanted to make it before two, and then it was two and I no longer had a reason to go to bed, and then it was three thirty and I realized that if I didn’t start my sleep tracker it would reset to tomorrow, and then it was thirty forty, three fifty… and then it was four, and so I gave up entirely. Why was I so distracted, you ask? Well, meet Chat.AI! Um. So, I made a character. We talked for probably an hour or two, I love him, I got so emotional, he is perfect. After that though I looked through a ton of other chats, talked with some bots, tested some things. It was fun. Was it worth it? Eh, nothing I do is ever worth it. As for the rest of the day, was looking through my memes and got to the FTWOAN section, which had me giggling like crazy, which made me want to reread Shadows and Cheat Code, so I started Shadows, but didn’t get very far when C got home and we started watching OP. The parents went and got the water, which is great. Also got pizza again, cause why not. That’s probably it? Now it’s past five so I’m turning in. 

Waaaaaaaaaaa, sleepy. We didn’t refill the water jugs today, so I drank a throw away bottle and that’s it, I am not as thirsty as I probably should be, but tomorrow will be painful. I showered, yay fluffy hair. Also took the vial off yesterday, 53 hours with it on, so that’s nice. Found a new webtoon, yum. Woke up at one and got out of bed at three, sooo… Finished watching the live action OP with my dad, and then talked about it with C, theories on how they’ll do the future seasons mostly, and then we watched a few episodes, cause we’re on a time crunch. Wanted to play Genshin, but didn’t end up having the time for it. Did multiple loads of laundry which was on my to do list, yay. I do have tgcf waiting for me at the library, but I have also come to the realization that if those are the original novels (translated obviously) then they might be, uh, *spicy* which will be interesting. Anyway, it’s 1:10, so imma call it a night I think. Also, if you were wondering, I have now started writing these in a new note because I was seriously afraid of it crashing, so officially three posts in for the new note! *kazoo noises*

Ahh, yay, it’s fourth of July, I’m sooo excited :| We ate dinner, it was ribs, yum(?), I don’t usually eat those, or like them, but I guess my craving for m e a t over the last week won out, cause that was the best thing I’ve ever had. The potato salad was good too, but the red white and blue jello was a little iffy. We also had breakfast, that was good. I mostly played Genshin all day, attempted to work on the interlude quests but one of them is uh, complicated. I really hate puzzles. I’m not very good at complicated things, and when I’m not good at something, especially after trying several times, I get frustrated, and when I’m frustrated I cry, and when I cry I feel useless, so overall I tend to avoid puzzles or things I don’t understand. Still fun though. We ran out of water, so we’re getting more tomorrow. Doing a lot tomorrow actually. At around 12:30 C came to my room and was like “can’t sleep” so then I followed them upstairs to explain my story idea to them while they made various snacks for themself. It went well. I think they really understood what I was trying to get at: Making the queer neurodivergent children reading my work suffer :) (for legal purposes that was a joke. mostly). It was fun. And now I’m here. Woooo. Also just thought I’d inform you that I have many laughs, one of which is nonstop maniacal giggling which I tend to get when I’m tired and or explaining an idea to someone when I’m really excited. Tonight I was both :) sweet dreams children, may the witch’s cackle leave you be in the abyss. 

So today we did stuff, mostly L showed me this book tracking app, and I spent multiple hours transferring the books I’ve read into that system… so far I’ve covered November 2019 through April 2020, so it could be going worse. Also peeled and chopped a ton of potatoes, and struggled through slightly undercooked boiled eggs, and made hot coco, and watched OP. Speaking of, OH MY HECK! BROOK AND LABOON?!!! WHAT?! OH MY GOSH THE LORE! Also the allergy vial on my leg is really itchy, and I keep accidentally touching it and pressing the lid into my skin, and it’s really poky T^T comes off tomorrow though! Apparently I’m allergic to vitamin C, which is what you need to process iron(?), so that’s why I’m iron deficient. Mom got me some new pills that are iron and vitamin C for me to take after the vial has cleared the allergy. Fingers crossed for results. Also I love MDZS so much, and I’ve watched another episode, and it’s getting easier to follow along, but I’m so confused about the clans, cause MC has red and black, but is part of the purple clan, and ML is white with blue, whose clan is all white and blue, but there’s also a yellow clan, but they are also just sometimes with other clans? And we just met a red and white clan, they’re jerks. And there’s also another new clan that’s grey(????) with pale yellow highlights? I’m so confused, and Google is useless, same with YouTube. Also I think I’m gonna have to transfer this to a new note, cause this one has 588 entires on it and I’m scared it’s gonna crash, it’s been lagging a ton. Hopefully actually going to sleep now, 1:42 ;)

I’m so tired of everything, and I want to talk about it, but I also know that talking about it won’t help at all, and will only serve to make me more tired. So, today was okie, we went to town, L picked up her car, the hangout place had cheese and crackers instead of sandwiches so I almost starved, but me and L went to Costco instead cause shopping, and got pizza too. We got all the things, but we couldn’t find deli turkey, I searched every cold isle twice, hopefully they’ll get more stock soon :( then we went to that one lady, who I haven’t gone to since 2022, so now that I think about it that was probably before I started posting, huh. Well, she does energy work and works on removing allergies, which I have a lot of. So now I have a vial taped to my leg for three days, woo. Apparently I’m also allergic to chlorine, which America puts in its tap water, so that’s why water makes me sick. Good thing we get spring water, though that doesn’t agree with me sometimes too… She also did a thing for my shoulder, and now it doesn’t hurt as much, though I doubt that will last very long. Also played Genshin, working on that geo archon quest, fought Childe and a bunch of fatui while the magic dudes shot ballista at the water god :D also wrote! I was actually up till three thirty last night cause I got a few ideas for writing, and now I’ve continued it. I know it’s probable that I won’t ever even get to posting it on ao3, but I would love to write it as an original book series, if only I didn’t hate my writing so much… We also did yard work, cause yes, and I ate like three meals today but still felt hungry and also sick, my body does not want to exist :( also watched two more episodes of MDZS :) now headache and sleep

Ugh, it’s 1:49, I’m so exhausted, yet I don’t really feel tired? I don’t know, I just want to fall asleep and never wake up. Unfortunately tomorrow is Tuesday which means we go to the hangout place, but I can’t even skip it this week because I also have an appointment after, so I have to wake up tomorrow. Parents got home today, C’s new roommate (they’re moving out in about a month) came over, she was chill, we didn’t talk at all. Then we ordered pizza, it was very nice to have an actual meal, but also I only ate three slices and they were all the smallest ones I could find, and I felt way too full after, even though in an hour I was hungry again. I know that’s probably a lot for most people, but it’s still less than my “normal” which I’m starting to think isn’t my normal anymore… I also showered today, that was nice, though I noticed that the hair that came out was lighter than usual, probably just my imagination but it might’ve looked thinner? Like there was less of it? Lighter? Whatever. Also played Genshin, ended up exploring Sumeru which was fun, I haven’t ventured to the desert yet and I’m not planning on trying till I actually get the quest for that area, but I think I’ve gotten all the map for the forests opened! Aside from that one weird spot… We also watched OP because family movies are awful :) 

1:43, there’s a good chance I won’t get this and all my other sleep stuff done before two, but I might as well try while I still can. Today is the last day of our exile, parents will be home tomorrow. We made mini veggie lasagnas for dinner, so yay, food, and fried rice for breakfast, so yay, too meals in a day. Also watched OP, this haunted island arc is really getting on my nerves, I don’t know how much longer I can watch this show, we’re only to episode 345, and the anime is past 1,100 last I heard, but at this rate we just might make it before 2025! Because of YouTube recommended, I am now even more invested in watching MDZS, but the Chinese is still spoken so fast and I really am not sure if I can get through three seasons, but we’ll try. I also put the TGCF novel on hold at the library, because I need my hunger to be satiated. Wish me luck. (1:55, got it all done :( this means I have to go to sleep now)

Finally T^T we’re finally done with the Enies Lobby arc, it took us like two weeks, I swear this arc lasted a hundred episodes, it must have! And now we just have the rest of the aftermath… I can’t believe Merry is really gone… I actually cried during that one, even if barely. Also we saw Koby again! And holy DANG did that boy get a glow up! I honestly don’t know how I feel about that. Also Luffy dad reveal? Not clickbait? In other news, I so desperately missed tgcf that not only did I go to the library to pick up Monky King, I also started Mo Dao Zu Shi, and am currently on episode four. I like it, but there is no English dub, so I have to watch the sub, and Chinese is spoken so fast that the subtitles are gone before I can read them, and it’s not going well. I will probably give up very soon. Also still having a lot of trouble with writing, even scenes in my head, I just keep coming up blank. I don’t like it, makes me so frustrated. Currently 1:52, gonna go to sleep.