RosyXcc

Hi!! From what I've seen, you've got an interest for stories about mental health and illnesses, there's this story that I've just discovered that you might like ❤️ it only has a few chapters for now but hopefully it will blossom into something you'd enjoy  https://www.wattpad.com/story/373472691?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=nickfagadar
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I kinda feel really drained right now. Not tired, just drained… Ok maybe a little tired. Anyway, Tgcf is amazing, I am slightly upset because they changed the male lead slightly, and so he went from cute adorable handsome sexy beautiful kind sweet precious perfect boy, to just sexy and kinda sweet, and it has upset me. Don’t get me wrong, sexy is great, but I will never get over the Hua Cheng of the first season. I am also (metaphorically) sobbing over the fact that there is no season three, not sure if I’ll ever recover from that. Aside from that, uh, we as siblings started a series, and it’s… interesting. I doubt we’ll watch any more. We also made food, I think this is the first day since the parents left that I’ve felt full. Made v8 and toast this morning and then L made us smoothies, which were amazing, but I felt kinda sick just after the second can of v8, so… that lasted me till dinner though, which was perfect. We made quesadillas. And talked about books, and politics, and anime, and Harry Potter. Was good. Now 1:40, go sleep, sleepy. (Seriously every time I think about I actually want to cry, why is there no season three?) 

GUYS! Heaven Official’s Blessing aka TGCF, I have never become more infatuated with characters than I am right now, these two that I can still not remember the names of, the main guy and the love interest, they are amazing and I love them and I have known them for less than a day but if they died I would kill every single person in that show and then myself >:( I’ve just finished episode ten, and I refuse to let myself not watch the rest in the morning, so remember to yell at me if I don’t. Watching this really makes me nostalgic for Monkey King Journey To The West, I should reread that, it was such a good book. Anyway, that was all I did today. And shower, I did that too. 

Ah, one o’clock on the dot, just finished a chapter, have about ten-twenty left, and I’m loving it :) I got so lucky with this one, for a minute there I was worried I wouldn’t be able to find a new webtoon when I finished the last one, but this one’s great! Aside from that, my period wasn’t as bad today pain wise, just a few small aches here and there, though I was super hungry. Honestly I don’t think us three will last till Monday. We are pretty useless. I could mostly take care of myself if I lived alone, but I would starve to death within a month, that’s pretty much guaranteed. That’s about it, reading, failed attempt to eat food, and some Genshin. Oh and a massive headache I’ve had for hours. I also woke up at around seven this morning, and went to sleep at two thirty, so about five hours, which probably didn’t help. 

Wow would you look at that, 12:10 and I’m already calling it a night! Guess we can thank the music for pulling me out of that story, same one from last night, still got about ten episodes left, I’ll finish it tomorrow. Period started last night / this morning and was AWFUL, it’s been a hellish day. C said that when I cane upstairs this morning I looked like I wanted to throw myself into traffic. Personally I cannot attest to this, but they always seem to know when I’m in a bad mood, so there must be some sort of tell. C went to a thing, they got back and we made pasta, then watched OP, and then L got home. C thinks that the Bubble-Bubble fruit is more unfortunate than the Ox-Ox Fruit Giraffe Model, but personally I don’t think it’s THAT atrocious… At least if she ever loses her job she’ll have a premade car wash (that is her body, but still)! Anyway, mostly been reading The Greatest Estate Developer, it’s very enjoyable. They’re in hell right now, so I’d say things are going pretty well. Hopefully *she* doesn’t go on a rampage when they get back, it wasn’t looking too good when they left… and that’s about it. Today sucked. And also I forgot to take a pill this morning, and now my eyes are getting kinda puffy, and my throat is a bit clogged >:( but it’s too late now, so I’ll have to wait it out till the morning. Sigh. (Ps i was playing games and now it’s 12:45, still better than two)

Gosh dang it, I’m right where I was last night! Two am, barely tired, desperately trying to convince myself not to click on the next episode! Just with a different webtoon! AGH! Anyway, today went ok. Our toaster is broken, but I managed to somewhat effectively make toast in the air fryer, so success? Me and C watched OP, Robin’s backstory was the best, I’m gonna cry, and now they’re fighting and- *coughing* they- *snort* he- *maniacal giggling* he’s a giraffe! I can’t, I already almost passed out from laughter earlier, I can’t do it again! But please, Kaku was so cool, and then he was evil, and now he’s just- *dissolves into laughter* I can’t! Anyway! No Genshin today. I’ve been having back pain for a couple days, like whenever I stretch certain areas or reach behind me, my upper back / shoulder blades feel super tight. And then L was giving me a massage for her class, and I got this super weird pain in my back. A straight vertical line on the right side of my back, it felt like a board with nails pinned along it was getting pressed into my back. Wasn’t a painful pain, but it still really hurt, does that make sense? It didn’t even make sense to me, but L managed to somehow mellow it out with some arm stretches and rubbing and stuff. And now I’m reading The Greatest Estate Developer, on episode 43 and loving it. I did not expect to love Lloyd, but he has quickly become one of my favorite MCs. Same with the webtooon as a whole, I kind of expected it to be trash, but it’s incredible! 

Take a breath, tell yourself that you’ve read enough, look at the clock, it’s two o’clock, it will (probably) be there tomorrow. Just go to sleep. Not that hard. Not, that, hard. *breath* Right! I spent all morning in bed, didn’t get up till one or two, and then I showered, so technically I didn’t enter the household until almost four. Food. Still have a difficult relationship with that. Always hungry, but I can’t seem to eat as much as usual, and I keep getting sick. I feel like I can’t eat anything, I eat, and then I’m sick, and then an hour later I’m hungry and empty again, which also makes me feel sick, but I can’t eat any more than that because my throat closes off with half the stuff I eat and I just.. Anyway, we watched some OP (One Piece is too long to type every time), had to stop though because it was nine o’clock and we’d just gotten to Robin’s backstory. Also played some Genshin, characters are being annoying, but I managed to ascend one, and the other two I’ll be able to get tomorrow, then I’ll go back to the main quests. Also started a webtoon that I’m really enjoying, episode 35 of 65! 

I was thinking, my routine has kinda changed from a few months ago. I don’t really read fics right now, even one shots are rare, while I’ve gotten back into webtoon, rereading a few old ones, and starting a couple new ones. I still have like forty more that I’m not keeping up with, but I can’t seem to pick one to read. The majority of my taken time is spent on Genshin, which is something I only restarted playing a few weeks ago. I also watch One Piece with C almost every day, which is completely new from a couple months ago. Obviously I don’t have school anymore, and it’s up the the hundreds outside every day so I don’t leave the house, though I do end up going to that one place with my mom on Tuesdays. They have really good sandwiches. I don’t watch Among Us very often, that seemed to be a short phase. Same with Sam and Colby, I haven’t watched one of their videos in a while, though I still watch a ton of edits of them which usually makes me really melancholy and sad. I also write, though it’s iffy. I’ve been writing, but I also feel like I don’t have anything to write. Lately the… love for *that* (not sex) is fading. I’m just not interested in it anymore. Which is so frustrating, because it’s still what my mind automatically comes to, which makes writing really hard. But I don’t get enjoyment from it anymore. It’s like I’ve built a tolerance. I’ve had that freak love since I was a kid, it’s so upsetting that I can’t tap into it anymore. If I can’t even count on me being crazy, what can I count on? (Also, we got mochi, and it had ice cream inside, and it was delicious) 

My arm hurts :( Parents left today, bit late, but they made it. L went with them to drive back the car (they’re taking a shuttle) but mom forgot her books so me and C drove in after them to deliver. Then we got ice cream, and went shopping for more ice cream, then went home. Me and C watched some One Piece, got to a new arc, and made fried rice for dinner. I then I watched some Fairy Tail, now on episode 15, ooo ahh, so incredible. Also wrote a bit today, and played some Genshin. That’s all. 

Tiiiiiiiirred. It’s nearly two o’clock. I had a shower, and mentally wrote a scene, but then when I was done I got pulled into a conversation till past one, so I’ve spent the last forty minutes writing it. The first part at least. Moving on, parents are leaving tomorrow, that’s cool. I’ve played a lot of Genshin today. Finished a mini quest in Sumeru that had spoilers for where I was supposed to go first, so I’ve decided to just leave that area alone for now. Made tons of progress with the Geo Archon quest, which was surprisingly tiring. Evolved my characters, but the world is now level three, so all the monsters are level fifty, which is currently as high as the majority of my characters can go, which means fighting is super annoying right now. I’m tired. I sleep.