I love your book sooo much, though I‘m not native English speaker I read it in one sitting and it’s one of the best book I‘ve read so far, not just on Wattpad, so good I would pay to read it actually and buy it in a store, you got talent and I realllyyyyy hope that you‘ll continue writing, your not alone I wish you to heal. I feel the mental issues you mentioned, and I am myself on a journey to get better and overcame a lot of trauma, but this endless way is hard, and what helps me is to do the things that make me me even if I don’t feel like it because sometimes, then the feeling comes, at least I‘m giving myself a chance to maybe feel something good. You don’t have to wait or fear doing something you love while being depressed will ruin it, maybe it’ll surprise you if you don’t have too high expectations for yourself and do it anyway, it doesn’t have to be the book I love so so much „hareming beastmen in the beastworld“, even though that would be very nice for me too, it can be anything - and saying things out loud helps too, idk if that’s helpful for you and I surely don’t understand you as a stranger but I care about you as a fan of you as an author and maybe this helps:) wishing you love and recovery, I hope we can read new chapters soon and I hope you can beginn new chapters in your life too