Rou

i want her to be free and happier without me. part of me relied too much on her, and that’s not good and i will never heal. the hardest thing is not about letting go, but moving on.

i always knew from the start, deep down she still have a feeling for her ex even till now. it’s not bcs i’m not trusting her, it’s bcs no matter how much she denied she’s done with her ex, i knew she’s not really done with her. 
          
          but at least, me with her we’re breaking up. i don’t need to burden myself with feeling like that anymore. 
          
          i just want to express my feelings, these feelings i never dare to express to anyone. because if i say this, i will definitely be the one who blamed.

i have time now. i'll read chaennie ff for a bit, before sleep :)

tadi jam 9 baru sampe rumah. terus jari tengah sampe kelingking kena tumpahan minyak pas lagi masak ayam. it’s all bcs clumsy rou. it’s really hurt tho :’)

i miss 2019 - 2021. 2019 tahun dimana baru tau blackpink dan suka sama chaennie. 2019 akhir, dimana pertama kali kenal aplikasi ini dan akhirnya download karena pingin baca ff chaennie. 2019 - 2021 dimana semuanya seru di aplikasi ini. i wish i can turn back time to the good old days.

baru sampe rumah setengah jam yg lalu habis lembur. hujan lebat bgt malam ini. bikin teh just to make myself relax a bit.

it’s me again. i broke up already. she’s tired of our relationship, and i can’t do anything about that. idk why at that time i jst accepted her reason, maybe i jst don’t want to force her to stay with me. it’s hurt me a lot, i can’t tell i’m fine when i still feel the burning inside my heart.

at least someone makes me happy today, thank you udh ngehibur disaat apa yg lg gw rasa dan jalanin lg berat2nya. 

idk what i feel. but for sure now i have migraine.

love you baby