This is a bit different from what I’ve been posting recently but I just have to get this off my mind. I feel sort of relieved...happy? A lot has changed since the last time I was here. One thing being the people that are around.
I just posted for the first time in a really long time. This time, I wasn't worried or thinking about what the people close to me would think, cause the people that are still around aren’t the type of people who’s thoughts I’d have to worry about. Of course, I still value and care for them and their thoughts and ideas, but i don’t have to w o r r y. Even though I still freely and happily posted self-insert stuff of me/Roxy, and did a lot of ‘x canon’ stuff, as I will continue to do, I had this weight. A set of eyes. Judgment. I’d have to worry about what they’d think and if they’d possibly be set off by what I posted or am doing.
They would think I’m cringey. Disgusting. People that did stuff like what I did was all that to them, even though they did the same. I cared for them a lot so I did everything in my power for them. But now it isn’t like that anymore. Now they’re gone and, while yes I did miss them, it isn’t like that anymore. Maybe I am cringey or whatever, but now I’ve become a bit more okay with that. I still don’t think it’s “cringey” and calling people cringe, when they really aren’t, is just plain mean.
Its kind of funny, cause posting this make me wonder of they’ll see this. Oh well.
