This is a bit different from what Iāve been posting recently but I just have to get this off my mind. I feel sort of relieved...happy? A lot has changed since the last time I was here. One thing being the people that are around.
I just posted for the first time in a really long time. This time, I wasn't worried or thinking about what the people close to me would think, cause the people that are still around arenāt the type of people whoās thoughts Iād have to worry about. Of course, I still value and care for them and their thoughts and ideas, but i donāt have to w o r r y. Even though I still freely and happily posted self-insert stuff of me/Roxy, and did a lot of āx canonā stuff, as I will continue to do, I had this weight. A set of eyes. Judgment. Iād have to worry about what theyād think and if theyād possibly be set off by what I posted or am doing.
They would think Iām cringey. Disgusting. People that did stuff like what I did was all that to them, even though they did the same. I cared for them a lot so I did everything in my power for them. But now it isnāt like that anymore. Now theyāre gone and, while yes I did miss them, it isnāt like that anymore. Maybe I am cringey or whatever, but now Iāve become a bit more okay with that. I still donāt think itās ācringeyā and calling people cringe, when they really arenāt, is just plain mean.
Its kind of funny, cause posting this make me wonder of theyāll see this. Oh well.