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Hiya there. Usually I don't type all serious but I want to make this message as comprehensible as possible. I don't expect many people to see this, but for those who do there's just some things I want to say.
I really want to apologize for how I've been in the past. If you weren't friends with me my personality was pretty rude, and even if you were chances were I'd still be an asshole. Long story short I was a pretty undesirable person to be around. I'm not trying to justify it when I say this, it's more of a message; The reason I ended up like I did was because of how I handled my issues. Bottling them up and laughing at them when I felt fine and just making them seem like nothing, as if they didn't actually bother me. If anyone's going through things, I beg you to explore healthier ways to cope. Apart from harming yourself, pushing it to the back of your mind is the worst thing I believe you can do. Even if you don't think about it, it's still there and it's making you a worse version of yourself. This isn't to say if you bottle it up you're a bad person, it can make you any different sort of way that's not healthy for the psyche. I hope this all makes sense, I'm not very good at wording stuff.
Another aspect of my old personality I want to bring up is my ego. I had an INSANE ego over Outlawed because I thought it was just the greatest piece of fiction ever written and if you didn't like it you were just stupid because you didn't get it. Horrible reaction to criticism but that's unfortunately how I was. Every time I think about it, Outlawed was a shit story. Like I had the idea, I had the message, those were good. The execution was awful in every aspect. I thought the story was so good just for the simple fact I thought it was so deep. It was also super personal to me and it really put me on the best track to overcome the things I suffer with, so when people didn't like it I felt offended so I lashed out.
Message cap hitting, but I just wanted to apologize.
