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ngl i do have an idea... i think i'm gonna make one last Thomas story, probably like a 40-50 minute read (and im gonna get a narrator so i can upload it on yt). i dont wanna say anything about it yet mostly because i dont really have a direction for it other than the title but it does give me ENDLESS possibilities
          
          it is something i want to do dont get me wrong, but i also see it as a way to make up for how ATROCIOUS i used to write thomas stuff and just in general. i dont wanna promise anything because we all know what happens when i do that, but i do think this is something you can expect from me and it'll probably be the final thomas thing i do 
          
          if it goes anywhere ill give an update :3

I just remembered I was supposed to make Outlawed I probably won't because it gets to a point when trying to make a Thomas project that you take away what makes Thomas so good in the first place and Outlawed just never once followed that. That's more of the reason why I changed TSAST to feature all OC engines instead of Thomas, I think the consensus is I did it so I can market the story and make money with it which... You're not that off but I don't like how that sounds  It's more of I'd LIKE to be able to publish it one day and be able to make a living by writing graphic novels, same thing but it sounds less harsh. This story truly does come from a place of passion and I love writing every piece of it, the money is just a bonus thing if I could ever take it that far
          
          I changed TSAST to not include Thomas yeah so I could actually have a chance at starting a writing career, but another big factor was that... How the hell does Thomas fit into it anymore? Yeah trains are a big part of the story but it just doesn't work for Thomas, when you start giving everyone really cool powers it starts to take away what made Thomas stick in the first place... The fact he's just a lil guy doing actual train stuff
          
          I think that's the problem I have with the AU side of community, not problems with the people I think everyone's awesome, I just find the stories tend to take away the charm of Thomas by throwing him into situations he and everyone else were just never created to do. Is it impossible to make it work? No absolutely not, you could make it work but I've never seen anybody do that. Granted, I haven't read a single thing from the AU side of Thomas for a year, so I might be speaking to a brick wall from past experiences 
          
          Long story short yeahhhh i aint doing outlawed 
          I just can't get into it, it's not really what Thomas is to me
          Not trying to put anyone down btw, keep writing what you like making, just personally it isn't my cup of tea, but you're doing no wrong :3

so i did this on the au wiki in the group chat but ill do it here too
          
          i guess its kind of like a q&a? ive been extremely hyperfixated on tsast recently and i kinda wanna yap about it so you have any questions about it feel free to ask, ill answer them if they dont lead to big spoilers :P

okay so i have something to announce finally. i got something to post on here at last (well not right now but eventually i will if i follow it)
          
          so in 2024 by the end of it, Outlawed was kind of getting good because my story crafting was getting better. in current day Outlawed which is abbreviated as TSAST now, it basically have no trace at ALL of what outlawed used to be, so mostly everything in the 2024 draft is gone
          
          TSAST handles like extremely serious subject matter, and i kind of want to break into writing with something not as heavy, so im gonna somewhat bring back outlawed but not really as an AU, it's structure will follow more of an actual story. Thomas will return :D it wont be engine ocs in this one (in TSAST it will be ocs in Outlawed it wont be)
          
          im like 99.9% sure i wanna do this but for those who see this what do you think? would you give this a shot if i wrote it? i havent written anything in a good while ive just been story crafting... which TSAST will be a comic so it wont need as much written writing as a story like this would, but its probably a good way to dip my toes back into the scene
          
          and no i wont lose my mind about criticism  ive become a mature(ish) woman
          
          anyways W idea?

Hiya there. Usually I don't type all serious but I want to make this message as comprehensible as possible. I don't expect many people to see this, but for those who do there's just some things I want to say.
          
          I really want to apologize for how I've been in the past. If you weren't friends with me my personality was pretty rude, and even if you were chances were I'd still be an asshole. Long story short I was a pretty undesirable person to be around. I'm not trying to justify it when I say this, it's more of a message; The reason I ended up like I did was because of how I handled my issues. Bottling them up and laughing at them when I felt fine and just making them seem like nothing, as if they didn't actually bother me. If anyone's going through things, I beg you to explore healthier ways to cope. Apart from harming yourself, pushing it to the back of your mind is the worst thing I believe you can do. Even if you don't think about it, it's still there and it's making you a worse version of yourself. This isn't to say if you bottle it up you're a bad person, it can make you any different sort of way that's not healthy for the psyche. I hope this all makes sense, I'm not very good at wording stuff.
          
          Another aspect of my old personality I want to bring up is my ego. I had an INSANE ego over Outlawed because I thought it was just the greatest piece of fiction ever written and if you didn't like it you were just stupid because you didn't get it. Horrible reaction to criticism but that's unfortunately how I was. Every time I think about it, Outlawed was a shit story. Like I had the idea, I had the message, those were good. The execution was awful in every aspect. I thought the story was so good just for the simple fact I thought it was so deep. It was also super personal to me and it really put me on the best track to overcome the things I suffer with, so when people didn't like it I felt offended so I lashed out. 
          
          Message cap hitting, but I just wanted to apologize.

So… how’s progress on Outlawed (the current version without any traces of Thomas in it) going?
          
          Any progress? Updates? Anything?
          
          Just curious, that’s all.

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