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Me remembering cookieronp death dough exists and I never finished it (lost interest in cookie run years ago) 😳

Life if I stopped getting these stupid ‘I’m a comic artist I could make your story a successful comic’ scams : ☀️☀️☀️
          
          And it’s always on my fanfics too… yes, scammer, let’s turn my Minori Hanasato x Ben Paul AO3 joke fic a comic. We certainly won’t run into any legality issues if we do that. 

Pokémon, Project SEKAI, Persona 5, Cuphead and The Walking Dead (game) fighting over my mind right now 

I swear I’m still working on books I just haven’t published anything properly in ages!!
          
          Also notes: I have kind of lost interest in most of my old fandoms (Cookie Run and Kirby especially) so I won’t be able to update some books for a while… ik that sucks but I did lose interest a while ago. I’m also a little more active fanfic-wise on AO3 (lmk if you want my user)
          
          I’ll probably post more original books when I actually have the time to  exams suck I’m sorry guys

If you get a bunch of notifications for my oc book I’m not rlly updating it I’m publishing my old chapters so I can finish the book and make a new oc book lolol

HAPPY FIVE YEARS TO MY ACCOUNT? I never even noticed what 

Sorry I haven’t uploaded for ages but is it normal to not feel like a real person? I feel like a literal concept. Like sometimes on my head I’ll address myself as my full name but then I’ll think ‘wait why am I saying this?’ It’s worse in the mornings but like what is happening bro 

I BEFRIENDED MY FRIEND CRUSH OF 3 YEARS LETS GOOOOOO 

New Cookieronp DD. chapter out. Maybe I’ll actually finish it this year 

I think I need therapy :D uaaaa!
          Explanation (tw trypanophobia again):
          My phobia (trypanophobia) is kinda ruining my life and health… my doctor thinks my breathlessness (it’s lasted more than 5 months, caused from fitness, anxiety, probably more?) is due to anaemia (won’t specify why she thinks this, there’s a second reason and I will not talk about it) and we need a blood test to figure it out… but I’m crying a lot from the thought, so I asked for it to wait since I wasn’t ready. She also put me on iron supplements and I’m nearly done with the pack, maybe it’s because I accidentally missed them two days straight but I’m almost positive they aren’t doing much  I have no other symptoms of anaemia aside from my breathing problems but I guess we won’t know? But I refuse to get a test until I feel ready (when will I be ready? Dunno!) so I think I need therapy for my phobia. Also just my anxiety problems because they getting BADDDD. Oh also also also I think my mental overload is helping my anxiety dominate my life, I don’t have GAD (that I know of? I really would expect to have it though because I have a LOT of the signs and have had them for yearsss), someone help, I wish I was a robot. No pain = no gain but also no pain! :3