*sleeping*

I'm tired... Why do I still like you? I don't want to, you already have her, and you won't like me either, you're straight. Maybe I should give up about this

i forgot to say it..
          HAPPY NOVEMBER!! (happy early birthday to my dad to, hehe)
          
          list what i want to do in November:
          - make more friends (I'm an awkward extrovert)
          - open up more to close ppl (my family, best friends, etc..)
          - be happier
          - stop falling for him.. (well, not mandatory, erm, is that the right word)
          - eat less/diet if i can (im overweight.. UANSJAKSJSK)
          - overthink less
          - sleep more
          - eat healthier 
          - get better grades
          - get closer to him- wait, what.. no (stop being on my mind, Nao)
          - idk, haha what 

my feet hurts

Stephen x Sleep is canon guys !!
          get to the wedding at 10 pm (we're asleep)
          
          I definitely don't make this because I got a 2 hour nap

have a bit connection to last post:
          do you ever feel this..? you only wanted to "LIKE" them, like is a crush way, like a silly school crush, but.. you realized that it might gone to far, you can't let them go, it feels really hurts if you did.. you don't know if u would calm this just a "crush" or did you fall in love with someone? i don't want this, my friends seems to be rlly easy to uncrush ppl, but it's been years for me (and one of my friends, they in a quite similar situation, just mine is crazier even if it's in a shorter length of time), and i don't understand, bc the other ppl i have a crush on is rlly easy to let go, but this..? idk.. maybe im already too attached, i even cry (sometimes) when thinking of him late night, i don't know, why do i have to like you so much? ik you only think me as a friend, ik you like someone else, ik you won't like me who's taller than u, ik you won't like me who's not feminine, ik you won't like me bc im a boy, ik you won't like me bc..im me. why do i hope for u to notice? even just a little..? god, this is embarrassing, why did i write all of this..im so selfish, im sorry, Nao (im going to refer them with this name), i didn't mean to be like this.. i want us to be friends, but, idk, my heart tolds me that ur rlly interesting and now i can't let go, graduation is near, will u remember me..? it hurts so bad, but u won't notice, that's the part that hurts, you won't notice my pain, im just a smart friend of yours who's rlly friendly and definitely don't have feelings for anyone, right...? I like you so much, it hurts so bad

do you guys ever feel like this?:
          so, for an example, you like person A, but person A likes person B, but you don't have a problem with that since person B doesn't like person A back, but now person A fancy person C, but person C also responding to person A, the problem is you like person A (and wants to be with them) but you want person A to be happy too.. and then you feel like you'll lost person A forever, even if you don't own them (and u know, u never will).. or is it just me?

Hey!! How are you feeling?:)
          Reminder that I'm always here for uuuu<33

I'm back 

I'm so disgusting, why the fuck do I have such a shameful mind..? I'm so embarrassed, why the hell I am like this? my family doesn't deserve this

the fact that hurts me the most is that they probably will think it's a joke when I say I'm stressed, I want to cry so bad, why am I like this..?