Truth is I am scared of forever, i am scared of settling down with whomever i fall for. What if one day he walks out of my life just like my father did letting another man do his job. My oh my how screwed up my life is comparing my future husband to my supposed father. If you think of it i have a reason, he'd be the father of our kids and he would jusst up and leave there life as well as mine just like my father. I don't want a man anything like my father i don't want a forever. I want an always, not a forever just an always that means everything. If that makes sense