Lets see today  if you are in pull away or pull close mood

Ohh fuck I loose my shit whenever u hold my hand....mainly forearm... the look in your eyes make me think for a while..may be you feel the tension too the way you are being childish around me but I've seen you'd hesitate to touch me...may be because you are scared that I might pull away...I know you like me not romantically but as a friend I think that's more then enough for now...you like me lika friend then let me be your friend but I'll treat you like my whole world...

Ohh to be your lover

Ohh my gawd guys today we went to a restaurant but then i remember that I need a drink so before entering the restaurant I went to buy me a drink so...I told everyone to go inside and I'll join them so....they sat on a 4 people table ( we are a group of 4 ) and God knows but they kept a spot for me beside her... usually she prefers to sit with either of 2 but from few times she's seating beside me or wants me to sit beside her

Fuck shes not only consuming my mind but me

Ohh gawd the way she gives me teasing eye side everytime she eats anything sweet while I order spicy anhhhhhhh

Ohh fuck shes a absolute fucking classical dancer

She held my hand not like whole but yeah the wrist with her index and thumb finger ( she knows I don't like physical contact )

May be she's only Friend with me because of her own goods..but want are we even Friends...like I have tied a friendship band on her wrist but like the last in the class...she saw me wishing everyone Happy Friendship Day...like if the situatuons were different then I would have wish you first if you were normal to me then I would have been only Friend to you but no you treat me different...let me tell you..you hold hands of others but not mine...you call everyone's name but not mine even if you call my name it's only for your own work not like some random talk...why why do I feel like I'm inferior to you why are you doing this to me...I know you noticed how I tied you Friendship band in the last and I knew you taunted me with that " ohh yor remember me quite early" but the truth is even if I had wished everyone first you were in my mind like I felt the tension we had when I tied a band to a girl beside you but not you....only if you knew how much I really crave for you not like sexual but your actual love

Why do I feel like I don't belong here