@RustInTime if you fail, u can always join my cult, it’s very nice here/j :] but you won’t fail, so no need to be scared. Your loved ones should support you on anything, so don’t worry about losing them. And congrats to you on planning out your life. Take pride in that. It’s way more than I could ever do. I know I’m also just a stranger on the internet, but I hope you can find comfort and honesty in these words. I’m always willing to chat if you need as well :)