Ruthe-is-emo

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          	Hi y’all so uhm, I kinda woke up today feeling nothing? Recently I’ve just hated myself and everyday woken up and felt nothing, sometimes I feel like crying, or I’ll get so frustrated with myself for not being able to di things I genuinely want to commit. Idek what’s wrong with me. I mean most days I can convince myself to act like I’m fine, but some days I just can’t be bothered to care. I’ve been considering scuicide a lot recently, I don’t know why. My life isn’t necessarily bad or anything bad or anything I just wake up feeling shit. I imagine what people Ik irl would say if they knew, my parents, my friends, my skl, everything. My dad in the past has called me a lot of things “ pathetic” “waste of space” “ good for nothing” and he isn’t wrong. I do feel like I am those things. I’ve needed to try and get rid of the pain, I would self harm but I’ve been trying not to, so instead I’ve been reading smut and starving myself. I stopped eating both to lose weight and as it’s really the only thing I have control over anymore, and reading smut isn’t for my own ‘pleasure’ or whatever shit you might think, I genuinely hate reading that shit,it makes me feel gross. I only do it as it makes me feel SOMETHING, y’all can thank the body’s natural instincts for that lol. So uh, apart from that my weeks been fine wby :D

yuckyuck21

@Ruthe-is-emo I don’t know you but id literally cry if u committed :( I’ve literally been searching everywhere on ur pfp and shi looking for signs ur atleast alive :(, u dont have to respond to this message hell its even better if u dont since u dont even know me but like idrk what to say  or how to like word my sentences but ur literally awesome sauce gal<3 I literally dont even know you but I litz love u, u seem like such a fun person to be around<333 ig i wanted to mention u can dm me on pinterest or messenger if u want to vent or smthin ik im a stranger and i prob seem like a 40 yr old pervert but i just cant imagine such a fun person like you to be gone :(( ( i wanna mention i uh noticed u from a hbh fanfic and your comments were hilarious I literally would check chapters for ur comments but then i saw ur convs on here and i got worried, ) i uh will drop my usernames and leave, my messenger ( rania de tlete ) Pinterest ( ran1ameow )  as i mentioned u seem like such a fun person be around your hilarious and you have friends worried abt u :(  )
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ApansPan

@Ruthe-is-emo oh no....please don't...I feel the same as you do, If I can hold on so can you! Please tell me that this isn't the reason you've been gone? I miss you, and that's enough. All of your friends, teachers, parents, everyone cares about you! Please don't do it, your father is wrong, my stepdad tells me the same bs everyday to me, and it messes w my head. Please don't.
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Everythingiscreepy

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Ruthe-is-emo

this message may be offensive 
TW: vent
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Hi y’all so uhm, I kinda woke up today feeling nothing? Recently I’ve just hated myself and everyday woken up and felt nothing, sometimes I feel like crying, or I’ll get so frustrated with myself for not being able to di things I genuinely want to commit. Idek what’s wrong with me. I mean most days I can convince myself to act like I’m fine, but some days I just can’t be bothered to care. I’ve been considering scuicide a lot recently, I don’t know why. My life isn’t necessarily bad or anything bad or anything I just wake up feeling shit. I imagine what people Ik irl would say if they knew, my parents, my friends, my skl, everything. My dad in the past has called me a lot of things “ pathetic” “waste of space” “ good for nothing” and he isn’t wrong. I do feel like I am those things. I’ve needed to try and get rid of the pain, I would self harm but I’ve been trying not to, so instead I’ve been reading smut and starving myself. I stopped eating both to lose weight and as it’s really the only thing I have control over anymore, and reading smut isn’t for my own ‘pleasure’ or whatever shit you might think, I genuinely hate reading that shit,it makes me feel gross. I only do it as it makes me feel SOMETHING, y’all can thank the body’s natural instincts for that lol. So uh, apart from that my weeks been fine wby :D

yuckyuck21

@Ruthe-is-emo I don’t know you but id literally cry if u committed :( I’ve literally been searching everywhere on ur pfp and shi looking for signs ur atleast alive :(, u dont have to respond to this message hell its even better if u dont since u dont even know me but like idrk what to say  or how to like word my sentences but ur literally awesome sauce gal<3 I literally dont even know you but I litz love u, u seem like such a fun person to be around<333 ig i wanted to mention u can dm me on pinterest or messenger if u want to vent or smthin ik im a stranger and i prob seem like a 40 yr old pervert but i just cant imagine such a fun person like you to be gone :(( ( i wanna mention i uh noticed u from a hbh fanfic and your comments were hilarious I literally would check chapters for ur comments but then i saw ur convs on here and i got worried, ) i uh will drop my usernames and leave, my messenger ( rania de tlete ) Pinterest ( ran1ameow )  as i mentioned u seem like such a fun person be around your hilarious and you have friends worried abt u :(  )
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ApansPan

@Ruthe-is-emo oh no....please don't...I feel the same as you do, If I can hold on so can you! Please tell me that this isn't the reason you've been gone? I miss you, and that's enough. All of your friends, teachers, parents, everyone cares about you! Please don't do it, your father is wrong, my stepdad tells me the same bs everyday to me, and it messes w my head. Please don't.
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