@Ruthe-is-emo
also tmi, i lost my virginity as of last year so yall can expect slghtly more relistic smut from me!! and my story telling ablities are much my captivating then there were in the past. so hopefully yall r into compelling plots and storys that makes sence!! anygays i gotta go b4 my mum trys to behad me sicne its 11;45 at night for me rn <3 LOVE YOU ALL!!
okok SO alot has happened, im pansexul w a boyfriend, goth appently and im now on anti deppresent n shit. i got my wifi completly revoked for over a year (hence why i was gone for a long time) and im currently typing thing on my mums old laptop on ignoito mode, so i might not be back for a while agin. i js wanted to let you all know im safe happy and well and i thank you for the surport. im in the works atm for anouther radiostatic fanfic called 'redeemed scuicide' and i will try and see if i can post it some way. please take care of youtselve my dolls i love you all sm, thank you sm for all the surport <33
guys guess what im alive!!!!
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hey! how are you?? <333
TW: vent
Hi y’all so uhm, I kinda woke up today feeling nothing? Recently I’ve just hated myself and everyday woken up and felt nothing, sometimes I feel like crying, or I’ll get so frustrated with myself for not being able to di things I genuinely want to commit. Idek what’s wrong with me. I mean most days I can convince myself to act like I’m fine, but some days I just can’t be bothered to care. I’ve been considering scuicide a lot recently, I don’t know why. My life isn’t necessarily bad or anything bad or anything I just wake up feeling shit. I imagine what people Ik irl would say if they knew, my parents, my friends, my skl, everything. My dad in the past has called me a lot of things “ pathetic” “waste of space” “ good for nothing” and he isn’t wrong. I do feel like I am those things. I’ve needed to try and get rid of the pain, I would self harm but I’ve been trying not to, so instead I’ve been reading smut and starving myself. I stopped eating both to lose weight and as it’s really the only thing I have control over anymore, and reading smut isn’t for my own ‘pleasure’ or whatever shit you might think, I genuinely hate reading that shit,it makes me feel gross. I only do it as it makes me feel SOMETHING, y’all can thank the body’s natural instincts for that lol. So uh, apart from that my weeks been fine wby :D
@Ruthe-is-emo OMG WHAT IM SO HAPPY OML, i am actually so sorry to hear u gained an ed but i hope you can heal n take care of yourself<33 congrats on going to therapy! but UR NOT EVEN ALLOWED ON ROBLOX WHAT… ITS LEGOS erm anyway, tysm Ruth<3 hope u have a good day 2 gal<3
@yuckyuck21 hihi sorry I've been gone, A LOT has happened since then but to make it it short a gained an ED ended up in hospital for a short time and now I'm in family therapy plus regular therapy! I'm on medication now for my deppresion I am alive and well I'm just not allowed wattpad anymore OR ANY social media (not even fucming roblox dude ) so ill only really reply to comments when my friend comes round or my bf and I can uses their phone >< love you too btw, you seem like a kind wonderful person have a lovely day
@Ruthe-is-emo I don’t know you but id literally cry if u committed :( I’ve literally been searching everywhere on ur pfp and shi looking for signs ur atleast alive :(, u dont have to respond to this message hell its even better if u dont since u dont even know me but like idrk what to say or how to like word my sentences but ur literally awesome sauce gal<3 I literally dont even know you but I litz love u, u seem like such a fun person to be around<333 ig i wanted to mention u can dm me on pinterest or messenger if u want to vent or smthin ik im a stranger and i prob seem like a 40 yr old pervert but i just cant imagine such a fun person like you to be gone :(( ( i wanna mention i uh noticed u from a hbh fanfic and your comments were hilarious I literally would check chapters for ur comments but then i saw ur convs on here and i got worried, ) i uh will drop my usernames and leave, my messenger ( rania de tlete ) Pinterest ( ran1ameow ) as i mentioned u seem like such a fun person be around your hilarious and you have friends worried abt u :( )
My mum just tried to convince me that pansexual and a romantic are the same thing after I explained what they were to her (she’s pansexual with a bf)