I love the feeling of my hands gliding on the keyboard with music in my ears. I love the rush of creativity I get while writing, the thrill of finding new words and incorporating them into my books. I love the thrill of almost being caught by my mother while writing because I know I'm supposed to be in bed but I decided that the plot twist I thought of 1 am was gonna be written as soon as possible. I love writing, it's a simple as that.
But,
it can be so draining sometimes. The drag of pushing myself to write even when I can barely pull on a smile for my friend. It's fun to write once I've gotten going but once I lose that 'spur of the moment motivation and creativity' it all just seems-
Look, I've rewritten this chapter for when seems like the 4th time and I'm getting tired of not being able to write anymore, I love doing it, don't get me wrong. But, lately, as in for the past like 5 months, I can't seem to put what I want into words.
It's just so frustrating not being able to express myself like I used to. I'm at the point where I'll think of a situation for a one-shot or a book and then I'll get the motivation to write about half of it if I even get that far. But then I just lose it, my train of thought I mean.
I don't really know what to do anymore, it's all just very frustrating like I've said multiple times, apologies reader. So now I guess I just have all this built up, you could call it 'passion' or 'creativity', doesn't matter.
But yeah, so I guess that's just what's up and why I haven't been updating. If you have any recommendations for an outlet I could use, pls share.