Soot!

Today marks 1 year since MTTYLs first chapter was made! If I remember correctly, it was actually 2 chapters posted at the same time! 
          
          Isn't it crazy how a year passed by? I didn't notice so by the time April came around, I wasnt prepared to do anything special. ^^"
          
          However, I want to try to do something for May 7th, which is when the fic was completed! Sadly since Im close to finishing up school and have a job I can't promise it'll be out by then.
          
          
          Thank you for reading, wither you joined when the fic was being updated or not, I still appreciate it. 
          
          - Soot

April 10th seems like a very important date. Don't remember what it was though. I think I was given an invitation to a party that day by some person? Probably.

I learned a lot. Expect something in the future.

We're cooked

Therapy.

Ok. Some things to explain.
          
          1. The reason why the fic was cancelled was because trying to write it ended up reopening deep scars, up to where I just got nauseous every time I tried. The reason why is because the events that the skaterlight fic is inspired by is still very much fresh. Without getting into too much details, I get into very bad delusional episodes whenever I'm reminded of one of my groomers to an extended amount. The scary thing is that he's still out there, roleplaying on reddit as we speak. Trying to vent out my story just left me wanting to cry since I know no matter what a happy ending wasn't even going to happen because my own story hasn't ended yet. Maybe I'll try again but not today.
          
          2. MTTYL has a low chance of getting a bonus chapter, or even reworked in the future. It was a vent book, but writing it was a huge mistake. I ended up breaking an alters vow to never get into sexual stuff after we got out of the grooming shit, so knowing I pretty much stabbed them in the back makes me feel guilt. I'm not taking it down, but maybe I'll go back and delete the sex stuff, especially from chapter 5.
          
          3. There's also a low chance we might write another huge fic like that. It was fun, but it was...eh. I need to focus on school now, and now that I have a job (starting on Monday :D) I need to focus on work and how to get out of my home asap.
          
          I'll still be active...somewhat. for now I need to delete Wattpad as I want to distance away from certain social media platforms. I wish I could've said that chapter 1 was releasing today but mental health and a good life isn't in my cards.
          
          Have a great day.
          
          - soot

The fic is cancelled. 

School starts in a week. I’ll be able to write the fic freely by then. First chapter should be out by then. If I decide to update the already made cover, Itll take about minute. Keep in mind I won’t be popping out a chapter every 2+3 days like MTTYL since not only do I want to make this fic of higher quality, I am going to start looking for higher paying jobs in order to get out of my current situation. Pace and love.
          
           - Soot

Btw if I don't get the fic out by September I'll write an alternate ending of MTTYL where Poob survived instead of waiting until next year. (I need to push myself despite the horrors in facing)

I was supposed to be done with the upcoming fic by now. Truth is, I'm currently in the same spot MTTYL Poobs was in. You could say that one of Poobs friends was real all this time, just living with me. My motivation to write at this point deteriated once I figured out what I was going through with this person was not ok in the slightest. I think once school starts again I'll feel safer to start writing again. I did write MTTYL instead of doing school work after all, lol.
          
          I'm not trying to be venty on my announcements and sorry if I am but honestly I am unable to write if I am going through something similar in the fic right now. I've been subjected to something weeks back that has left me scared to even leave my room in fear this person will do something worse. As long as I feel safe at school I might be able to get it out.
          
          Just. Sorry. I wish MTTYL did not reflect on my life. I can't believe I am forced to live with someone like Poobs "friend", let alone think what they were doing was normal and not that serious for so long.
          
          Hope you guys are having a great day. Please do not worry for me. I will be fine. Just wait patiently. It will be out. I will not let this get the fic I have been planned cancelled.
          
          - Soot