hello_slay12
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S00TSPRlTE
S00TSPRlTE
Today marks 1 year since MTTYLs first chapter was made! If I remember correctly, it was actually 2 chapters posted at the same time!
Isn't it crazy how a year passed by? I didn't notice so by the time April came around, I wasnt prepared to do anything special. ^^"
However, I want to try to do something for May 7th, which is when the fic was completed! Sadly since Im close to finishing up school and have a job I can't promise it'll be out by then.
Thank you for reading, wither you joined when the fic was being updated or not, I still appreciate it.
- Soot
S00TSPRlTE
April 10th seems like a very important date. Don't remember what it was though. I think I was given an invitation to a party that day by some person? Probably.
AztroLuvesTeevee
@S00TSPRlTE this makes me slightly worried, hope you’re doing well soot!! I wish that you’re not feeling overwhelmed or stressed!! MTTYL helped me cope with some of my own stuff and people really appreciate you!! glad to see you still posting every once and a while <3
S00TSPRlTE
I learned a lot. Expect something in the future.
S00TSPRlTE
We're cooked
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Therapy.
Screeninator
@S00TSPRlTE I don't quite fully understand what this means, but if I interpreted this correctly, I hope it's going well S00T.
S00TSPRlTE
this message may be offensive
Ok. Some things to explain.
1. The reason why the fic was cancelled was because trying to write it ended up reopening deep scars, up to where I just got nauseous every time I tried. The reason why is because the events that the skaterlight fic is inspired by is still very much fresh. Without getting into too much details, I get into very bad delusional episodes whenever I'm reminded of one of my groomers to an extended amount. The scary thing is that he's still out there, roleplaying on reddit as we speak. Trying to vent out my story just left me wanting to cry since I know no matter what a happy ending wasn't even going to happen because my own story hasn't ended yet. Maybe I'll try again but not today.
2. MTTYL has a low chance of getting a bonus chapter, or even reworked in the future. It was a vent book, but writing it was a huge mistake. I ended up breaking an alters vow to never get into sexual stuff after we got out of the grooming shit, so knowing I pretty much stabbed them in the back makes me feel guilt. I'm not taking it down, but maybe I'll go back and delete the sex stuff, especially from chapter 5.
3. There's also a low chance we might write another huge fic like that. It was fun, but it was...eh. I need to focus on school now, and now that I have a job (starting on Monday :D) I need to focus on work and how to get out of my home asap.
I'll still be active...somewhat. for now I need to delete Wattpad as I want to distance away from certain social media platforms. I wish I could've said that chapter 1 was releasing today but mental health and a good life isn't in my cards.
Have a great day.
- soot
SuperCoolAwesomeGuy
@S00TSPRlTE i hope you feel better soon man, maybe it would be better to focus on your life for now! i wish you luck in the future!
Screeninator
@S00TSPRlTE I know you won't see this, but that isn't going to stop me from wishing you a nice life, so here goes: You don't have to come back to wattpad if you don't want to, everything you do would be your choice, not instructed by others. Its nice to hear you're getting a job! Even if it takes a bit out of you in specific cases, its always nice to know you don't have to fill everything with free time. The story was great, even if it was just to vent, you did it well. There's no need to remake it even if you get some sort of random motivation. (its unlikely, but I don't want anything left unsaid.) Lastly, your life looks like its going in a better direction, I give you the best wishes. (Technically though, you said you'd delete wattpad, so if you ever see this, I hope I was right.)
S00TSPRlTE
The fic is cancelled.
S00TSPRlTE
School starts in a week. I’ll be able to write the fic freely by then. First chapter should be out by then. If I decide to update the already made cover, Itll take about minute. Keep in mind I won’t be popping out a chapter every 2+3 days like MTTYL since not only do I want to make this fic of higher quality, I am going to start looking for higher paying jobs in order to get out of my current situation. Pace and love.
- Soot
AztroLuvesTeevee
@S00TSPRlTE thank you!! Whatever your going through, I’ll always try to comment something positive because going through something like that sucks and I love trying to cheer people up. :)
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Btw if I don't get the fic out by September I'll write an alternate ending of MTTYL where Poob survived instead of waiting until next year. (I need to push myself despite the horrors in facing)