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We're cooked
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Therapy.
Screeninator
@S00TSPRlTE I don't quite fully understand what this means, but if I interpreted this correctly, I hope it's going well S00T.
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Ok. Some things to explain.
1. The reason why the fic was cancelled was because trying to write it ended up reopening deep scars, up to where I just got nauseous every time I tried. The reason why is because the events that the skaterlight fic is inspired by is still very much fresh. Without getting into too much details, I get into very bad delusional episodes whenever I'm reminded of one of my groomers to an extended amount. The scary thing is that he's still out there, roleplaying on reddit as we speak. Trying to vent out my story just left me wanting to cry since I know no matter what a happy ending wasn't even going to happen because my own story hasn't ended yet. Maybe I'll try again but not today.
2. MTTYL has a low chance of getting a bonus chapter, or even reworked in the future. It was a vent book, but writing it was a huge mistake. I ended up breaking an alters vow to never get into sexual stuff after we got out of the grooming shit, so knowing I pretty much stabbed them in the back makes me feel guilt. I'm not taking it down, but maybe I'll go back and delete the sex stuff, especially from chapter 5.
3. There's also a low chance we might write another huge fic like that. It was fun, but it was...eh. I need to focus on school now, and now that I have a job (starting on Monday :D) I need to focus on work and how to get out of my home asap.
I'll still be active...somewhat. for now I need to delete Wattpad as I want to distance away from certain social media platforms. I wish I could've said that chapter 1 was releasing today but mental health and a good life isn't in my cards.
Have a great day.
- soot
SuperCoolAwesomeGuy
@S00TSPRlTE i hope you feel better soon man, maybe it would be better to focus on your life for now! i wish you luck in the future!
Screeninator
@S00TSPRlTE I know you won't see this, but that isn't going to stop me from wishing you a nice life, so here goes: You don't have to come back to wattpad if you don't want to, everything you do would be your choice, not instructed by others. Its nice to hear you're getting a job! Even if it takes a bit out of you in specific cases, its always nice to know you don't have to fill everything with free time. The story was great, even if it was just to vent, you did it well. There's no need to remake it even if you get some sort of random motivation. (its unlikely, but I don't want anything left unsaid.) Lastly, your life looks like its going in a better direction, I give you the best wishes. (Technically though, you said you'd delete wattpad, so if you ever see this, I hope I was right.)
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The fic is cancelled.
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School starts in a week. I’ll be able to write the fic freely by then. First chapter should be out by then. If I decide to update the already made cover, Itll take about minute. Keep in mind I won’t be popping out a chapter every 2+3 days like MTTYL since not only do I want to make this fic of higher quality, I am going to start looking for higher paying jobs in order to get out of my current situation. Pace and love.
- Soot
AztroLuvesTeevee
@S00TSPRlTE thank you!! Whatever your going through, I’ll always try to comment something positive because going through something like that sucks and I love trying to cheer people up. :)
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Btw if I don't get the fic out by September I'll write an alternate ending of MTTYL where Poob survived instead of waiting until next year. (I need to push myself despite the horrors in facing)
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I was supposed to be done with the upcoming fic by now. Truth is, I'm currently in the same spot MTTYL Poobs was in. You could say that one of Poobs friends was real all this time, just living with me. My motivation to write at this point deteriated once I figured out what I was going through with this person was not ok in the slightest. I think once school starts again I'll feel safer to start writing again. I did write MTTYL instead of doing school work after all, lol.
I'm not trying to be venty on my announcements and sorry if I am but honestly I am unable to write if I am going through something similar in the fic right now. I've been subjected to something weeks back that has left me scared to even leave my room in fear this person will do something worse. As long as I feel safe at school I might be able to get it out.
Just. Sorry. I wish MTTYL did not reflect on my life. I can't believe I am forced to live with someone like Poobs "friend", let alone think what they were doing was normal and not that serious for so long.
Hope you guys are having a great day. Please do not worry for me. I will be fine. Just wait patiently. It will be out. I will not let this get the fic I have been planned cancelled.
- Soot
AztroLuvesTeevee
@S00TSPRlTE I didn’t see this because I am on vacation but I hope it gets better for you dude, that’s horrible
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@Sillysplitxx thank you :) our plan is to get our friends to help me get an apartment next year. Need to save up and try to get a better job but it’ll be worth it. But for now, the fic needs to get started.
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Been getting into max design pro x gegadiago nugget
AztroLuvesTeevee
@S00TSPRlTE REAL DUDE. crack ships are taking over my life cough cough crap uhm Damon Gant and Manfred von Karma cough (toxic old men yaoi)
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Writing something rn. It was just supposed to be a one off vent but fuck it I'm turning it into a ventfic whatever. Dont ask why I didnt keep my word on abandoning writing in less than 2 months.
Plz dont kill me when the first few chapters get uploaded. it's very personal like MTTYL. Only really writing it as a way to help process some stuff between me + my best friends and a guy we saw as a friend who recently came back. I dont know if I ever said this but just because I write something with fucked up shit doesn't mean I glorify or romanticize it. Just putting it out of the way because this fic will probably be a little more depressing. (Probably because again it's a vent fic)
No Partybeetle this time sorry, its skaterlight related. I think it fits better and the pair reminded me of a friend and I. (I cherish them so much they mean the world to me /p)
If you're not a fan of chatfics being mixed with a traditional fic or dont like chatfics in general I don't think you should look forward to this. I need the fic to be a mix of both in order for it to work.
I'll probably upload the first few chapters on AO3 first then on wattpad whenever I get a cover so uh. Sorry.
Anyways. I hope my writing feels more improved by the time I start releasing chapters.
:P
SuperCoolAwesomeGuy
@S00TSPRlTE I loved your partybeetle fic. So I think I will love this one too! Especially since it's skater light which is a ship i rlly like! I can't wait! I love ur writing so much! But I'll be patient ofc :3
RedStar_1
@S00TSPRlTE YAY! I love reading your vent of Partybeetle,it was sad but also understandable in a way!! I'm looking forward to this skaterlight one. I cry easily but crying is like a way of releasing stress to me,so i don't mind :3
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Ugghhhh hopefully I can vent freely unlike last time when I took out alot of stuff from MTTYL because I got scared to vent lol
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Oh and BTW I'm very sorry if I never responded to any of your comments especially when the last few chapters were posted. TBH I got overwhelmed and had to step away for a bit lol.
I didnt ignore you, I just have anxiety lmao.