Why did you make me believe you loved me when you knew you didn't? Why did you shower me with love and tell me how much you want me? Why were you always telling me my bpd isn't an issue and that I'm never annoying? Why did you tell me you will always be here to reassure me and listen to me when my thoughts are too much for me to handle alone? And why did you become like this? Why did you switch from the sweetest person ever, the man of my dreams, to a guy who can barely stand my jokes? What happened to telling me everything about your day and what you're going through? What happened to over sharing dumbest things ever just to keep the conversation going? Just for you to ignore me one day, leave me on seen for the whole day when I asked you if you are mad at me, after all the time you were worried about hurting my feelings, you did, after telling me you'd miss me so much in the summer, you ignored me two days later, after you were close you slipped from my hand in a fast motion, I couldn't even understand it, I tried understanding you I really did, I cried and looked for any reason why you'd be acting like this, I waited for your message the whole day, for you to tell me you are not doing well and it's not me, I'm so sad and hurt and it's because of you, and I can't tell you, the person who once listened to all my fears and cries, now is causing them, and I can't even hate you, I love you so much, please get back to me... I don't wanna loose you, I feel like I'm losing myself without you, you're a very important part of my life now, you're everything I wake up to and sleep to, I can't imagine my life without you, please please please come back to me... Please god I'm begging you don't take him away from me ...
