January— kind of bored but kind of fun
February — interesting month , I'm having fun
March— oh
May— oh no
June—I don't want to be alive
July — can't die yet
August — I'll figure it out I'm going to live
September — this grief I carry will be etched into my bones grief is a circular staircase and I have lost you
October — actually a really pleasant month
November — :)
December — tbd