life is pretty hard on us, it sucks out iur energy and drains of motivation and our wills. i know, it is hard, but whatever you are going through is going to pass. and one day, you will look back and remember that you went through all that, you'll remember that you are still standing strong. you've gone through so much, but you survived it. i don't know you on a personal level, but i do know that you are one kind soul, and that won't go for nothing. you can do it, the only thing that bugs about it is time. but trust me, i have been there. i know how it feels and i know it feels like getting suffocated, but it is going to end. the sun is going to shine, a new day will start. you CAN do this, i believe in you.