I really want you guys to know just how much you all mean to me. there are times when i want it all to end, and then i'll realize just how much i'm accepted on this site, how everyone who reads my stuff isn't going to judge me. and sometimes, when i come home and i've a new bruise somewhere where my parents won't see it, or a new cut, i'll just sit there and read through all your guys' appreciative comments, and it'll make me feel just a bit better, knowing that there's someone out there who likes me for who i am without even knowing me. and please, i don't know if you're religious or not, and if you aren't, my apologies, but please put your prayers in for my older sister, who has recently passed on. She was more than a sister to me, she was my best-friend, and my life. she was twenty years old, a grad, she was the best friend i ever had, she was my life when i wanted to end everything. with her gone, i don't know what i'll do. she's been there for me since the beginning, the school-hate, the sickness, the rage, the anxiety attacks, everything. she was someone that i loved more than anything and she's gone. if you guys have any older, don't ever take them for granted because you'll miss them so much when they are gone. please don't. i apologize for ranting like this, and i, again, just wished to let you all know that you're amazing and you're what keep me going most of the time. you're the best people i think i've ever talked to, i don't even know what you look like. i love you all, don't forget that.
i'm sorry for ranting at you, if you've even made it this far.
goodbye
