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— i was formerly _nyctxphilia but i’ve changed my user now

oof i started writing again and i feel like a whole new person ✊

hey guys,
          
          so last year i wrote the fanfiction, 'mending her broken heart'. it was about a depressed harper who did youtube for a living as a way to move on from her dark past. then she met dan middleton aka dantdm blah blah.. And and the rest is history (if you've read the fic you'll know)
          
          it's all bittersweet shit and there's a lot of drama to sum it all up. i'll be honest here; it was one of my worst works ever. i absolutely hate how i wrote the starting chapters and i also hate how much i dragged the story to thirty six chapters, which honestly in my opinion wasn't needed.
          
          but i got a tremendous amount of support for the fic, ngl. after hitting 1k reads, i got 2k in just two months which was really overwhelming for me. so by the time i finished the fic, it was at 2.9k reads. but instead of waiting for it to hit 3k, i unpublished the fic. here's why; i realised, if people wanted to see me as a good writer, i would have to unpublish the fic and edit it. i managed to edit the first four chapters, but after that, i just gave up.
          
          i realised the only reason i gave up, was because i wasn't motivated. i was rewriting a fic about a person who didn't motivate or entertain me in anyway. i realised i wasn't into dan anymore.
          
          so in conclusion, i'm unpublishing the fic permanently. i realise i'm letting down all the people who supported my fic, but at times i feel like i'm being pressured into editing the fic and satisfying my audience. i don't want that. i'm my own person and i can make my own decisions. 
          
          i hope you guys will still continue to support me when i write other fiction about different fandoms. but, just not the tdm fandom.
          
          Thanks, 
          AestheticallyEmo 

i've temporarily unpublished mending her broken heart don't panic thanks

okay so i've come to a decision.. and it's to edit this fic. tbh when i first started writing this fic i was pretty much a suckish writer and the problem here is that my writing only started improving towards the end of the fic so i'm going to unpublish the fic and re-publush it again in a few days max.. thanks

Thanks for the follow!

chapter thirty five! one more to go and the fanfic's finished (f**king finally)

Thank you

I know you might feel alone, like you have no one but please know
          
          I’m here for you. I always will be. I’ll never leave your side. 
          
          You’re stuck with me lol
          
          You’re such a good friend of mine, and I want you to know that I love you. You’re such an amazing human being, you’re so nice and kind. You’re absolutely stunning, inside and out.
          
          You deserve the world.
          
          You’re worth something, and I want you to remember that. I know it may seem like life has no purpose,
          
          But you just have to find your purpose. And you will, One day.
          
          I know you will.
          
          So keep on fighting, I believe in you.
          
          You WILL win this battle. Stay Strong ❤️