SILLYCUTEPID

# a thread for myself and my shitty feelings

SILLYCUTEPID

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DEAR OLD EROS, 
          	  
          	  you really changed, huh ? you became such a depressed piece of shit over the year and you changed for the worst you bastard. if i could go back in the past, the first thing i'll do is cry. if i were to stand in front of the old me, i'd be blinded by all the happy smiles and innocent aura shining so brightly off of the old eros and you'd be so disappointed as your eyes land on me, seeing the hideous emotional monster you became. i would get on my knees in front of you and beg for your forgiveness that i made us such assholes as time progresses. if i could bring you to the moment and the day where everything started crumbling down to the ground i'd punch old eros and tell him to fucking avoid that painful fate that's going to be coming. if i could tell you all the wrongs you did so that you can make them right i wouldn't hesitate to give you that chance of being happy if it was either by yourself or with someone who has been destined to be with you. but that won't ever happen that's a wild and impossible dream to reach and that doesn't exist because i fucked up the chance already, all i could say is the day it's time for me to close my eyes forever will probably be the eternal peace i ever wanted and waited for. 
          	  
          	  YOURS TRULY, EROS.
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yoonfluous

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          you probably would never see this, and that's okay. i've been thinking a lot, way too much. and i keep looking over the stuff that's happened in the past. surely, our thing between each other ended horribly and caused us both unbearable pain. but even so, even if it did end, it was another opening to a new beginning. a sequel, a book 2. back then, even if we did not say it to each other, we were both in pain, we were both suffering. but we kept a smile stuck in our faces in order to not worry each other. we kept and kept on doing that, and maybe because of the supressed emotions that we could have fixed in the beginning, maybe none of it would have ended. but, i know it's quite weird, but i'm glad that we had our wake up call because of this break up that we went through. we looked over our mistakes, we both got more mature. we both became a better version of ourselves. and maybe we are meant for each other; eventhough our paths strayed far away from each other, we managed to be with each other once again. we both made a choice to be together again. it was a risk we took, just so we could try another chance and not make another mistake like the ones from the past. but still, the future is very unpredictable. we could still make mistakes, but that's okay, isn't it ? this time we'll learn through it together. this time, we'll face our fears together. and we'll be stronger than ever.
          
          you were my angel in the past, and you'll still continue to be my angel in the present and in the future. my love, i'm proud of you. for becoming strong and brave. i'm proud of the person that you are, right now. i'm proud that you manage to keep being stronger each day. you never fail to surprise me. you never fail to amaze me. i love you. i really do. and i promise, in the future that i'll be the one to put a ring on your fourth finger. advance happy 500 days together, angel. ♡

SILLYCUTEPID

# a thread for myself and my shitty feelings

SILLYCUTEPID

this message may be offensive 
DEAR OLD EROS, 
            
            you really changed, huh ? you became such a depressed piece of shit over the year and you changed for the worst you bastard. if i could go back in the past, the first thing i'll do is cry. if i were to stand in front of the old me, i'd be blinded by all the happy smiles and innocent aura shining so brightly off of the old eros and you'd be so disappointed as your eyes land on me, seeing the hideous emotional monster you became. i would get on my knees in front of you and beg for your forgiveness that i made us such assholes as time progresses. if i could bring you to the moment and the day where everything started crumbling down to the ground i'd punch old eros and tell him to fucking avoid that painful fate that's going to be coming. if i could tell you all the wrongs you did so that you can make them right i wouldn't hesitate to give you that chance of being happy if it was either by yourself or with someone who has been destined to be with you. but that won't ever happen that's a wild and impossible dream to reach and that doesn't exist because i fucked up the chance already, all i could say is the day it's time for me to close my eyes forever will probably be the eternal peace i ever wanted and waited for. 
            
            YOURS TRULY, EROS.
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