kigaru
update ! i know this seems — clingy, but i want to leave a letter every single day, because i miss my dearest, sweetest friend. you were grumpy, yes. and snappy, and silly and a dumdum. but, you were also the sweetest, softest grumpy dumdum. the grump i considered to be my closest friend, the grump i had grown to love more than i should’ve, but that’s okay.. i don’t regret it, even if it wasn’t returned ! i didn’t regret it because you deserved that kind of love, even if it wasn’t from me you wanted it from. when you joked about the kisses, i got so upset because i really wanted to kiss you, lots and lots, i’m sorry for acting weird about it, y’know? i tried my hardest to respect all of your boundaries, and such ! but this isn’t what matters. what matters to me is you, your happiness, your health. so, i hope wherever you are, whoever you may be with, i hope that you are truly, extremely happy. i hope that you laugh, and smile— and get all cute and grumpy lots. i hope you’re eating proper, yummy meals and i hope that you’re getting plenty of rest. i hope you remember that i love you, and miss you. and that i’ll always be here with open arms if you ever decide to return .
kigaru
60 days in ! today sucked, i wish i had you to snuggle, and give lots of kisses. you always made me feel lots better, y’know? mhf. i’ve kind of accepted the fact that you won’t be back at this point. but, i’ll still wait patiently for you. i love you.
kigaru
51 days without my squish.. my bestest friend, my reason for smiling and bouncing, my reason for bein’ happy.. i miss you more than anything, you know? i regret not asking you to stay.. you told me it was gonna be a short break.. i never imagined it would be one that never ended. i thought my squish would be back within a few days, though.. my hope slowly faded day after day, every minute that went by after seeing you had posted about permanently leaving. my heart felt as though it twisted up until it fell to pieces, because i just love and miss you so much every second that goes by. you know, today i saw this.. super fluffy dog ! it reminded me of you — as funny as that sounds. as do the fluffy looking flowers i’ve painted, and the soft, sad songs i’ve listened in on. and the clouds, and the rain. ‘nd the sun. peaches especially ! and, pandas. those were your favorite, weren’t they? i’ve grown to love them even more because of you, even if they weren’t your favorite. i wish i could dream of you, bubba. i wish we could hold hands, and go on cute friendship picnic dates. and i wish i could smooch your cheeks, and tug you along with me everywhere i go. i wish i could hear your grumpy complaining, so i could reach around and smack your chest. i wish i got to tell you just how much you meant to me, and how much i actually loved you.
