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//rant/vent!!\\
i promised someone i wouldn't hurt myself, and i don't want to break it i really don't want to.
because if i do they wouldn't forgive me! and i wouldn't forgive myself!
i'm so fucking exhausted, school drains me and school hasn't even been going for long!!
i went to see my therapist today and i didn't speak up, i should have told her i cut, I should have told her that i was so very close to taking multiple sleeping pills, i really don't want her to know that i'm afraid of growing up, because i feel like the more i grow and age the more those shitty thoughts will get to me. i don't want to be alive whatsoever, if i didn't have the people i have in my life right now i probably wouldn't be alive, i'm so thankful for my friends and brothers for helping me through everything.
