Vent:
So today I am officially half way through my first week of college classes. I went to Zoom for them in 2 class. And been working on all the mini assignments in all 3. I guess the change hasn’t really hit me yet. I thought I was adjusting.
I was wrong. I ended up breaking down and crying my eyes out while my mom was teaching me how to drive. We did what I practiced last time but I made a lot more mistakes. I was constantly second guessing every movement I made on the road. So we stopped again in the parking lot. I felt the tears coming up, but tried to get myself together. But as soon as I starting talking everything poured out.
Like I can’t remember the last time I cried that hard. I didn’t really notice how overwhelmed I was until more things landed on top. Things are really hard right now and changing a lot. I don’t feel ready. I feel so nervous and confused about everything.
Mom said she noticed something was up but didn’t say anything while we were driving. I didn’t even know something was up till I started crying. I just feel so scared, and unsure about myself along, with everything else lately. It seems like my life is changing all at once while I’m trying to figure one thing out at a time
I don’t know what I want to do but I constantly feel the pressure of figuring that out as soon as possible. I just feel so overwhelmed and inadequate. And I have for a while.