Kieran

<3333

Look i got a new pfp!

Hi I hope you're okay imaginary friend <3

If you were killed, I wouldn't be at your funeral
          
          I would be in jail for killing the person who killed you.
          
          We are true friends
          
          We ride together, we die together,
          
          Send this to everyone you care about Including me, if you care
          
          See how many times you get this
          
          I want you to know you are an amazing friend, till death and forever.
          
          If I don't get this back I understand,
          
          But I have a game for you.
          
          Once you read this letter, send it to 15 people including me.
          
          If you get 3 back you are loved.
          
          Nobody knows how important something is, until they lose it.
          
          Tonight (right at 12:00 am) The person you love will realize they love you.
          
          Then, at 1:00 am or 2:00 am be ready for the shock of your life!
          
          If you break this chain, you will have bad luck.
          
          With love, send this to the 15 people.
          
          If you don't you will turn ugly in one year.
          
          A friend told me to do this so passed it on
          
          Tomorrow 2 boys/girls will ask, can I have your number?

I want to write you a one shot

Love you <3

Should I write my new book in first or third person?

How are you, imaginary friend?

Why does having friends have to hurt so much

This is the only place I feel as I can rant to and I doubt anyone will see this because I’m not announcing it to my 7 followers which is good because I can rant without anyone knowing anything 
          The worst thing is when you are overreacting about something but you know that you are yet you can’t stop yourself from it. Like I know right now it’s not a big deal like whatever but it hurts me a lot and I know I shouldn’t worry about it and cry over it but it makes me feel like no one actually cares. Why can’t people mean what they say? Maybe she does mean it but that doesn’t stop my overthinking mind from thinking she has some ulterior motive or something. I don’t even know why it hurts me as much as it does. I mean it shouldn’t, it’s just a stupid picture but why was that the only one she took down. The only with me in it. Has she really come to hate me that much? Yeah she says she cares but I don’t know if that’s true or not. It’s frustrating because I know that I shouldn’t worry about her taking a picture of me and her off her Instagram cause like it’s her choice but that doesn’t stop it from hurting me a lot because maybe she really doesn’t care about me. I don’t even know when she took it down but I just want to know why. She probably hates me I mean I’m not exactly the best person and I know that but I’ve been trying. Obviously I’ve not been trying hard enough. I wish I could just easily turn off my emotions. I don’t want to be around anyone anymore. All I do is screw up and hurt them unintentionally and then they leave. I don’t want to be here. But I know I can’t go and that hurts me because it’d be so fucking easily just for me to go and it’s be easier on everyone. Why do I have to feel like this? Why can’t I be happy and back to being when I was 11 and didn’t give a shit about anything except to be careful not to swear in front of my family. I’m done with people, I’ve been hurt too many times and now I’m just gonna distance myself from everyone