I'Il be disappearing for awhile.. Lately I
haven't been doing very well and not
been taking care of myself either. I have alot of things going on in my life. Recently I lose a close family member that passed
away. Which strike hard against me and hurt badly now. I'm having going through with ex close bestfriend that I knew when me and her were little kids but it's starting arise. That now her lover demanding speak to me and have a "talk" which I know it's going to be bad going with be with her and her lover. But I'm gonna have to deal with face to face since now I don't know what to do about it. I started to asking myself if there really anyone besides me anymore. Throughout my life I lost many friends. Friends that I called good, close and best. And even saw some like a brother or sister. But I lose them all, even cousins. They say hey are there for you but it's all a lie. They just wanna say that and trying get a quick escape from you before they hardly answer to you anymore, such "family". I cannot even trust myself anymore. this dark and painful depression path. It's hurting me and hurting my spirt..and feeling very down. With so much bad thoughts to myself. But it doesn't matter, now I only have myself and myself alone in my painful path. I have no one to lean towards too, let it all out, or even... I don't know..anymore...I'm lost and in pain in my own darkness. And soon enough..it will finish me....