Ann

Why can't I ever so something right for once. I know I'm not perfect and can't communicate to others around me. But if doesn't me I don't have feelings. I know I was wrong. But it doesn't matter how i feel. I just get told lies. Your so much better than your brother. Then you should be more like your brother. News flash I'm not my f***king brother. So stop trying to make me him. Sorry I doubt  my self. I'm not perfect. I know I'm not. I'm far from it. 
          
          
          
          Sorry. I need to put it out there where I am basically anonymous. Not like my friends really care. 

A happy thing for once. I got to visit my dad today. I am so happy it's been about six months since we last visited him. We only get to see him twice a year cause it's a bit of a drive. And we have to be approved and stuff. The prison is strict on what we wear and stuff. But I got to see him so YAY . 

I'm tried of being treated as the bad guy when i was the one that was always there. I don't get why after everything I've put up with always seems forgotten in my family. I'm not my brother and I'm not perfect. So why can't they  see how much I've put up with. They should be f&%$king glad I'm not my brother or my dad and not following their footsteps. I hate when I can't rant to someone cause their always gone when I need them but I am always there when they need me. And I'm always there. So I have to rant to people that don't even know me. I am sorry. I need to put this somewhere where my a%$ of a brother can't get it cause he has read my diary. I need to burn that. Sorry again. 

I freaking hate it when every time I freaking talk I get accused of having a attitude or being b*tchy. It makes me not want to talk. 

Question. I have gotten news that I can try and reach out to a half sister and I don't know if I should? I feel like she might hate me cause she feels our dad abandoned her for me and my family. But that's not true and I've had to visit him in prison. So the question is whether or not I should try and reach out?

Today is my birthday have to enjoy school.  Yay. I'll try to update soon.

I hate when people say stuff that hurts and they don't realize it.

I am tired of trying to make everyone happy, when they just hurt me.