SaigeBride

still not dead yet

SaigeBride

wattpad used to be my happy place, my safe haven. 
          and then it wasn't.
          
          so like any other smart fellow, I found somewhere new that I could rest easy: the stage. the harsh lights, and booming amps, and the way it echoed as you strode over the plane of the stage was so comforting.
          
          then sad and depressive feelings started building up in the theatre. I shed tears over my lost brother on the steps of the stage. so then I had negative connotations with it.
          
          I had to find a new safe place. I still can't find it. I feel like I'm searching for somewhere that doesn't belong.
          
          I just can't find any motivation in anything. Sure, I smile. Sure, there's times when I laugh. There's times where I'm content.
          But am I happy?
          
          oof. isn't clinical depression radical?

SaigeBride

My inspiration's back!  I'm going to try to continue writing more. I unpublished a lot of books, but I might go back and revise until I'm satisfied with the outcome. Maybe I'll even finish some ideas that never got published. Who knows? My creativity is ebbing, and I'm unsure what to do with it. 
          Hopefully new stories soon!

SaigeBride

Depression, school, and other personal things have been going on in my life so I'll probably delete my Wattpad or never use it again. Actually, the only reason I haven't deleted my Wattpad is because of all the drafts I have. If I can figure out a way to save or transfer them all, I would, but I just am running out of time and motivation. 
          Writing used to be this amazing escape for me, now I can't even remember the last time I enjoyed it. I'm running out of inspiration and creativity. I'm nothing but a machine.

TheChemicalStars

@SaigeBride (this is Christal) Hey Sarah. I'm sorry about all that you're going through all that. I've been in practically the same situation for a while and I know how much it sucks to lose all the inspiration. I hope you can get through it without leaving, but if you can't, i can completely understand. It's a stressful situation. I'm here for you if you need me, just message me on my main account. You're not alone, stay strong ❤ 
            ~~Christal
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