Sam Meow

December was the worst for me and my family is still fighting but thanks for everything 2025. I know it wasn't good but it gave me some new opportunities, I got a lovely gf and despite I lost friends and isolated myself I have two girls that I really appreciate their friendships and for being with me. Sof has been my best friend since we were 4years old and till this day she's with me, I know I have been the worst, I know I wasn't there and I didn't notice how bad she felt in 2022 and how we drifted away but we made up. Vale and I didn't talk a lot but I was with her when she fighter with her old bff, I remember holding her in my arms and comforting her.
          
          Finally I met Ang back in 2021, I thought she would be a online friend and no more but I was wrong, she wasn't only a friend, she was my everything and I learned a lot from her. I know our own problems limits us to do some things but we managed to have a healthy relationship, although I'm dying here I'm trying my best to be okay and improve 
          
          I love them allllll

4 hours until new year

A bunch of stuff has happened these months and currently I'm struggling with my mental health. My parents don't care and blamed the phone. Last month i got in trouble, my sister promised me to get me out of the house when she gets the money o to rent an apartment or moves out, I don't use my phone because they took it away but they gave me it back just with limits, however I still don't use it because it reminds me of that specific day of November and I'm really scared
          
          
          I've lost interest on everything but these days country humans popped in my fyp on TikTok and it made me smile
          
          I'm just saying thanks to this fandom, I was in my lowest when I got in and I'm glad it's still a part of my life, even if it's a little

wow life sucks

This acc is nostalgia for me) I miss my ch phase..I miss reading Wattpad 24/7 and I miss when I didn't try to fit in with everyone ahhh;-;

Onyx, Miriorite and some more authors updated when I barely interact with the country humans fandom so it's impossible for me to read their books because I have others interests like marvel, Voltron, Bungo stray dogs, books ughshhh I still love their books tho :( they were a comfort place when I felt down and depressed

Things got bad this month, I like to write what happened just to remember it but it's..personal that my parents took away my phone and i only use it 2 hours now. BUT that doesn't stop me to keep reading fanfics and scrolling through TikTok, watching videos and series. My parents are disappointed of me but idc :/

Also I have a girlfriend! I found out I was comphet lesbian all this time..but now I'm okay

When I read all the old messages I've posted here it makes me feel nostalgic because I remember when Countryhumans, Wattpad and AO3 were my comfort while I was going through a hard moment.
          
          I've changed a lot since then and Hetalia is one of those fandoms I still follow and love, even if it's not Countryhumans it feels like it
          
          I'm focusing on what I want to do and trying new things, little things are stressful for me and overwhelming, my mental health got worse than what I expected ;;-; and reading CH fanfics were ones reason to keep going

uhmmm maybe I'll read Countryhumans fics again, i still love this fandom...