SamMeoe

wow life sucks

SamMeoe

Onyx, Miriorite and some more authors updated when I barely interact with the country humans fandom so it's impossible for me to read their books because I have others interests like marvel, Voltron, Bungo stray dogs, books ughshhh I still love their books tho :( they were a comfort place when I felt down and depressed

SamMeoe

Things got bad this month, I like to write what happened just to remember it but it's..personal that my parents took away my phone and i only use it 2 hours now. BUT that doesn't stop me to keep reading fanfics and scrolling through TikTok, watching videos and series. My parents are disappointed of me but idc :/

SamMeoe

When I read all the old messages I've posted here it makes me feel nostalgic because I remember when Countryhumans, Wattpad and AO3 were my comfort while I was going through a hard moment.
          
          I've changed a lot since then and Hetalia is one of those fandoms I still follow and love, even if it's not Countryhumans it feels like it
          
          I'm focusing on what I want to do and trying new things, little things are stressful for me and overwhelming, my mental health got worse than what I expected ;;-; and reading CH fanfics were ones reason to keep going

SamMeoe

But i can't lie to myself and say "yeah i don't enjoy reading countryhumans fics" because a part of it its not true. Maybe when I feel nostalgic or need some inspiration ill read them again <33 RR is one of the reasons i stayed in this fandom, im still waiting for its end so i could leave completely

SamMeoe

Even when im not into Countryhumans anymore (yeah also I left the fandom) i still enjoy RR. I guess I could say its a fanfic which have a special spot in my heart and i would never get tired of reading it.
          
          Rusame is not my cup of tea anymore..but I can make an exception for RR, i love Kai's writing and it helped me with my English ;)
          
          Now im more interested in anime and reading books, im looking forward improve my behavior and focus on what i really like