Hi everyone,
I know I just posted, but I'm back. Earlier this year, a friend challenged me to start being vulnerable, so that's what I'm doing.
I know people dislike it when a story suddenly stops, so I'm giving an explanation. I think I'm done with Chrysopoeia and maybe with writing entirely. I don't know what I've done wrong, but it's clearly something. I see other stories with only 6 chapters posted inconsistently with tens of thousands of views. Meanwhile, I've posted 35 chapters regularly since September, and I haven't even broken 900 views. I told myself it needed time to grow, but it's been 8 months. I thought maybe I needed a more eye-catching cover. Maybe I needed to put in chapter numbers. It didn't work. I've posted it all over my social media accounts so people would know about it. I've put in hours and hours of outlining, writing, revising, and proofreading to make sure it's the highest quality, but nothing. So, I've concluded: it's just a trash story.
Some might tell me to practice more. Well, I've practiced for 14 years. I've studied creative writing in college, attended conferences, taken classes, and met with other writers to get better. I've written 1,000,000 words of "practice." I've even published two books (which have sold less than 200 copies combined, so there's more proof).
I just don't have any talent.
It's discouraging to keep putting my heart out there only to see it gather dust, so I'm done. I can't handle it breaking anymore. I love Cassia, and I'm so sad I couldn't give her the story she deserves. To the two or three people who've actually read it, especially Filit, thank you. I would have quit a long time ago without you. I'll leave the story up in case there's anyone who happens to enjoy it, but there won't be any more chapters.
Thank you,
Sami