Tw: School shootings, overdose, teen pregnancy, under age smoking, under age drinking, talks of gang violence, violence
Honestly I'm used to the idea that I won't love past 29, its something I expected young. I grew up poor as dirt, I had well off grandparents but they didnt realize how bad it was. I'm in highschool now, my dad finally got a job but money is still unstable and I go hungry some weeks. But I'm not here for pity.
In the past two week ove 5 people have threaten to shoot up my school, it's funny tbh.
I'm so used to the idea of dying that in sad it didnt happen.
By the time I get to senior year half my graduating class from freshmen year wont be there, some kids will over dose, some kids will kill themselves, some girl will get pregnant and disappear, most will drop out, some will join gangs
But that's just life ain't it. I've gone from poor to poor with some money to spare.
I'm not ashamed anymore just sad.
Life isn't easy and poor kids wont see easy lives.
But I guess that's just how life goes, half the people I graduate with are gonna be dead by the time I'm 30 if I live to 30.
-Sam