Sapphira_Heart

To my future self, dami mong ginawang kabobohan this year. As in. It will cringe you, still, just how I'm cringing thinking of those things too. 
          	
          	But you've learned a lot too. As in. MADAMI. Ayaw kalimiti, please. 
          	
          	UNTA dinapud ka mag binugo. 
          	
          	remind tika:
          	1. Continue to give, because I know u love doing that. Don't expect something in return, kay aside sa masakitan ka, giving genuinely expects nothing in return. 
          	
          	2. Date base on your type. Ayaw nag explore sa lain please. Tama nani ako gibuhat ron. Pag explore pero, like kanang naa jud sab saimo type. Ayaw nang complete opposite. Mabuang raka.
          	
          	3. Your problems are never lesser than. May problema ka. Malaki. Nakakamatay. Pero kaya mo. Kaya mo lagi. 
          	
          	4. Never forget your roots. Always be grateful. Mahalin mo yung mga tao na tumutulong sayo. Mahal ka nila, sa ibang paraan, sa hindi mo alam. Pero may pagmamahal. Lagi't lagi, meron. 
          	
          	5. Maging masaya ka. 
          	
          	mwuach ka oi
          	
          	love,
          	sept. 29. 2026. eliza. version

Sapphira_Heart

To my future self, dami mong ginawang kabobohan this year. As in. It will cringe you, still, just how I'm cringing thinking of those things too. 
          
          But you've learned a lot too. As in. MADAMI. Ayaw kalimiti, please. 
          
          UNTA dinapud ka mag binugo. 
          
          remind tika:
          1. Continue to give, because I know u love doing that. Don't expect something in return, kay aside sa masakitan ka, giving genuinely expects nothing in return. 
          
          2. Date base on your type. Ayaw nag explore sa lain please. Tama nani ako gibuhat ron. Pag explore pero, like kanang naa jud sab saimo type. Ayaw nang complete opposite. Mabuang raka.
          
          3. Your problems are never lesser than. May problema ka. Malaki. Nakakamatay. Pero kaya mo. Kaya mo lagi. 
          
          4. Never forget your roots. Always be grateful. Mahalin mo yung mga tao na tumutulong sayo. Mahal ka nila, sa ibang paraan, sa hindi mo alam. Pero may pagmamahal. Lagi't lagi, meron. 
          
          5. Maging masaya ka. 
          
          mwuach ka oi
          
          love,
          sept. 29. 2026. eliza. version

Sapphira_Heart

Dude, ang dami kong gustong sabihin at ilabas. CHAROT tagalog. 
          
          But seriously, I have so much, that I couldn't keep it all. 
          
          Looking back, my past posts here, speak so much of how resentful I was, as a daughter, as a friend, and as a person. I always knew I was not the favorite one. That I was always looking for validation from people. And I hated people for not giving me that. I was too hard on myself. I always thought I was alone. 
          
          Now, as I try to practice seeing things in a bigger picture. I am blessed, I am seen, I am loved, and I am carried by many people. I was so blinded. I was trying to find things that I neglected the things I was receiving. 
          
          I want to forgive myself for not knowing. For not thinking this way before. 
          
          However, the pain and the years of being in the corner, does not disappear overnight. I can't deny the fact, that there are days that I feel down, still crying in that corner. But thank God, I don't dwell longer now. I DON'T CRY LONGER NOW. 
          
          Thank youu, Lord! THANK YOU SO MUCH!