Sapphira_Heart

RN 2026!!!
          ONE TAKE, NO RETAKE!!!

Always not the favorite one. Always served with a bare minimum. Always given something that is someone else's favorite. Always welcomed in an empty emotion, and always sent off without any genuineness. 

I'm so grateful for the life given to me, but sometimes I can't help but feel the pain of all the inconveniences I encountered because, somehow, I just don't have everything nor the privilege. Ang hirap kapag lahat ng gusto mo o kailangan mo ikaw dapat ang kikilos. Ang hirap isipin na ang iba nakukuha lang nila ito ng walang kapalit, tapos ikaw kailangan mo pang paulit-ulit na patunayan sarili mo.

I find it funny that I have to teach myself how to cook diff recipes coz no one taught me how. I find it heartbreaking yet so fulfilling. People who point fingers at you saying u can't be a good mom or u can't go far coz u don't know basic stuffs are just so . Tapping myself at the back coz I'm learning on my own and I can say now that, I know how to cook! Coz I taught myself how! Bye. 

I saw a lot of things falling in front of me. I saw myself falling from something I am not even sure if it is worth the fall. Am I too hard on myself? Or am I too hard for other people? I shouldn't be questioning myself. I shouldn't be blaming other people. I can't help it, I honestly can't. I don't know why I am doing this anymore. Is it for them? Or for me? But I am certain that all I wanted is to be noticed and chosen, always.

          Hindi ko na po kaya aking mind. Diko na sya ma control. Help. SOS. Wave wave wave.

Eric Seth M. Obedencio, RN.
          Ma. Eliza D. Pelaez, RN.
          ✨

It hit me hard. I realized that no one will do it for me but only myself. 

Too many heartbreaks.

Did you ever have the urge to just cry during an exam? Like you have mixed emotions? Or you don't know what to feel anymore? I do. I'm feeling it right now.