So.. school huh
I've recently realized that the reason for most of my unhappiness for the past 3 years has been, you guessed it, school. Now that I've officially graduated and am out of that horrible mess, I feel like things are slowly but surely getting better.
As if a burden was taken off of my shoulders. The days are getting longer, I can clearly say what I've done throughout my day and I no longer feel that an invisible wall of stress is slowly crushing me from inside. I smile more, I'm not bothered by unhappy thoughts, I have time to do what I like doing.
It's strange though, I still feel like I'm wasting my time doing silly things, that what I do isn't important and there's been people around me my whole life who have been telling me so. That playing video games, writing or doing art in general won't get me anywhere. I was forced to study something I didn't enjoy and because of that, there was never a day at school which I looked forward to.
But it's funny, because now that the day has come when I can finally say goodbye to that hell, I'm in a place where I can decide what do to with my life. I'm the only person who has a say in what I want and what I don't want to do. And I sure as hell don't plan on wasting my time anymore.
I want to come back to writing, to creating, mostly because it's connected to what I'll be studying at university... which is theory of digital games.
Honestly, it's a dream come true and after a long ass time, I'm looking forward to something in my life. And I'm happy, I'm really happy.
