I'm lost, it's like I disappeared. I'm searching for the light, for hope,for a world a world where I'm not alone. I'm laying here alone, but it doesn't fill like it, it feels like I'm running in a forest through obstacles waiting,hoping,praying for a night in shining armor to save me. Hope its a big feeling and for those who have it I'm happy for you i reward you and for those that don't I know the feeling.
The truth for me is that life's a battle sometimes you loose the battle but sometimes you win it. Ive lost the battle to many times to still have the strong and powerful feeling of hope but doesn't mean you shouldn't have have it. Im still wandering through that forest i say I'm hoping because I want to have hope but I cant. sometimes i feel like i don't deserve it but sometimes i feel like i just cant handle it. The life I'm living or was livng is or was a disaster.
In this moment i wish i had hope i needed hope but it wasn't there. I was all alone in that forest, all alone no one could hear my painful screams for help. I'd like to think theres someone watching over us but in that moment i had my doubts because no one could find me, see me, hear me i was all alone. Imagine that feeling kicking, screaming, crying but your hope is fading its as if it disappeared like magic poof...... Its gone. Can you hear me now. i haven't disappeared yet please help me.
I'm fading away slowly, painfully with no hope just loneliness and pain. It's crazy to think you can just fade away like a fog but it happens you drift away with different currents sometimes you catch a fast current with no pain involved but for some people like me you get the slow and painful currents.
