Satilinethejay
I really just had 3 nightmares in a row. The last one was so sad and upsetting.
Satilinethejay
Satilinethejay
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and now there is this annoying as fuck noise outside
Satilinethejay
Yep I think that's it, I'm introverted and am all people'd out, it's too much. And now I feel bad cause I realize I've been avoiding her and hiding in my room. So I don't have to interact with people.
Satilinethejay
I'm starting to think I've hit my people limmit.
Satilinethejay
I'm autistic so too many sounds at once is too much, also the house is usually quiet, but since she's been here there's been sound nonstop. Maybe that's a factor in why I'm more frustrated than usual? Theres also the fact she has to have 2 heaters on and still complains that it's freezing even though it's so hot we have to keep our bedroom door shut to keep it cooler in here, (our room is the coldest in the house and is bad at retaining heat). And if you open the front door for even a second you get yelled at to shut it.
Satilinethejay
Yesterday I almost had a meltdown because there was the sound of the tv, the small heater in the kitchen, the fan in the laundry room were all happening and I was trying to count something at the time and she then started to play youtube on her phone loudly and even when I told her to turn it off please for a moment so I could count the thing I was trying to count she ignored me.
Satilinethejay
I feel like a bitch but she keeps eating all the food, like almost a whole loaf of bred and now a bag of family chips, both after they were just bought? I feel bad but also wtf.
Satilinethejay
she's been here since thanksgiving, that's 8 days. She's either leaving tomorrow or the day after.
Satilinethejay
I don't like holidays, I love my grandma but I just don't like being around her all the time, it's not just about her eating everyhting but also like comments and stuff, or making us do things for her like every 20 minutes or she just talks really loud/has her phone super loud and the walls in our house are thin. And it's been nonstop since thanksgiving basically. And not including the day before or today I had to literally scarf my dinner down like a dog because she kept calling me to do things for her. Like I love her but I want a break, and even if I hide in my room I can still hear her damn phone or if she calls me I have to go help her immediatley.
Satilinethejay
My mom bought chips for her lunches and also just to snack on and they literally ate like an entire family sized bag of chips in 1 night, the day it was bought. I am so mad, also I just made dinner and she had dinner not even 2 hours ago and is hungry again. Like how tf? I'm still full and I had less than she did. And I ended up making her a sandwich because I felt bad and it just frustrates me so much.
Satilinethejay
I feel awful.
Satilinethejay
I'm a bit frustrated. My mom bought 2 loaves of bread 2 days ago (today is the 2nd day) and somehow 1 loaf is already gone, like wtf how? I know I had a sandwich and I made my mom 2 sandwiches for work but that still leaves like 12-15 pieces of bread left. And now I feel guilty because the person who ate like all the bread asked me to make them a sandwich and I said no because I need them to make my moms sandwiches for work (she gets 2 a day). But now I feel so bad, but also like you ate almost an entire loaf of bread so like I feel like it's a bit justified to be frustrated at them, idk what to do.
Satilinethejay
I made myself a bagel pizza for lunch but for some reason it was extremely salty, which made me a bit sad cause other than that they were like perfect.
Satilinethejay
Because I didn't want to get up and make myself lunch and also at like actual lunch time I had gotten out of my room to get a slice of pie and I didn't want anyone to judge for coming out of the room again so soon to get more food
Satilinethejay
I just slept for 14 hours. How tf did that happen?