Saturn

Hello people! Yes, I’ve basically been gone for 2 years, but now I’m officially back, for real this time. 
          
          I’ve looked back on all my old books and now that I notice they don’t really fit my writing style anymore, and I lost the plot of one of my best books alone the way. So I plan to rewrite pretty much all of them, and try to think of better plots. 
          The whole reason why I was gone was because I didn’t have any motivation for any of my projects, so I needed to take a break, even if it was for around 2 years.
          
          I was focused on my school work, and now I’m about to be a freshman in high school and I have an audition for an art program in my school that is coming up later this week, so I’m very excited for that and I have to work on my pro-folio, so I have been busy over the years. But my newest book that I just posted has been a idea I’ve had for 3 years now, and on finally started working on it. I’m very excited to keep working on it. 
          
          I don’t have a schedule for posting, because whenever I would try to implement one it would never work out, as I would lose motivation. So my schedule will keep being inconsistent, but if I release an exact date of a new chapter, then I’ll to stick to that date if not post the new chapter the day after. Anyways, I’m so glad to be back and posting on Wattpad, I’ll try to update my story as frequently as my schedule allows me too or when I find the time and motivation. 

I'm back!! I've been busy with personal life shit, but I'll finally stop procrastinating and get stuff done! Sorry for my absence, I'll get myself back on track. I'll figure out a day when I can post the two new chapters I've finished during my hiatus.

Just met my soulmate, I was cosplaying tubbo today and I walking around Hollywood Circle, and then I come across this girl cosplaying ranboo! So we made friends each other and took pictures together. But like the dumbass I am, I forgot to ask her name and for her number so like hahaha 

Haha just cried in the bathroom today at school in my 6th period, I almost got shanked by this kid, I got made fun of, I got mocked because of how I sound, Someone started being racist to me and actually said that he was racist when he got called out, and I got called ugly. Yea everything's been good for me today, totally not wanting to cry again in the bathroom in my house. Everyone in school just sucks, everyone is just racist and let me tell you no white people go my school, only Jamaicans, Haitians and Hispanics. I'm Hispanic and everyone just acts racist towards me just because my skin color is white and I'm so tired of it, just so tired of it. I can't anymore it's the worst I literally almost got stabbed in the eye by this kid just because I had a slinky and he wanted it so he tried to stab me for it and when I told him I was gonna beat his ass if he did it, he made fun of me and he called me ugly, then this other boy just told me 'shut your white girl ass up' and I'm a boy, so I just got up handed the slinky to my friend, went up to my teacher and asked to go to bathroom and just sat on floor and cried. I couldn't, I just still wanna cry and I don't really know how to tell my sister or grandma because their busy with their own shit so I just decided to just vent here. Ha I don't know anymore life is just getting worse for me the more people start being mean to me the more physical violent they start to get and not only that people are starting to sexually harass me just because I look like a girl but I'm not! I hate this, I can't just tell people openly that I'm trans because I don't know how they will react and it scares me, almost all the people in my class is homophobic and I only told my close friends who I'm grateful for because they call me by my proper pronouns and preferred name, but not matter what everyone else around just sees me as a girl and a white girl just because of my skin color. I don't know what to do anymore this is so hard for me.

I can't say anything without be told 'Why do you always have attitude', like if I retort to something my sister says about me and I raise my voice a little because that's how I talk, she immediately says that I have attitude when she was the main one saying that that everyone in our household only knows how to yell since we never had proper conversations. It's annoying that I can't say anything without be told off just saying what I want to say, it's so stressful and I hate it. Everyone gets mad me for no reason half the time, just because I have a bad cursing habit that I'm trying to fix, but everyone decides to be an ass to me so I be an ass back. It's just so fricking stressful and I'm trying to do a lot things this school year. I've been trying to get goods grades, not get in trouble and shit but everyone decides to make it more stressful and I'm trying. I'm literally trying but my family doesn't seem to give a flying fuck, I'm just so tried of this and I have a test today. It's just to stressful for me. 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I'm sorry for ranting but this is the only place I thought I could vent other then to one of my friends on discord. Ps. I'll be posting the next chapter around October 10th, I feel like I've taken enough time to finish the chapter.

I got my desktop fixed! i can finally write on a bigger screen then my phone lol also working the third chapter of Coffee shop waiter still lol my motivation is small so I'm trying to get as many words in before I give up :'>

Me posting angst in my book, readers; stop this is hurting me, me who is writing future chapters with more than sadness; Oh you'll be more than hurt :)

Fuck it, when I'm 15 I'm working at Publix and then when I'm 16 I'm gonna work as a tattoo artist, nothing can stop me now. I'll spoil my dogs and baby brother as if my life depends on it.

When you're working on a 5k chapter for a ao3 book and is planning a 3k Coffee shop waiter chapter that literally is taking forever, I'm setting goals for myself when it comes to chapter words because Coffee shop waiter is gonna be like 15 chapters in total it'll probably be one of my shortest books ever and the ao3 book will 25 chapters and it'll only be updated once a month or something I'm planning a proper writing schedule for myself so everything isn't so disorganised but it's ticks me off a lot but I promise I'll make a good schedule that I can actually stick to.

Listen, female Mikey. IDk! I just think Mikey would look cute as a female even though he is already one of the most cutest things I've seen on the entire earth, lol but like what would his female name be? Would it just be the same thing? Would he shrink or stay the same height? Bruh!! I feel like he would shrink ughhh, girls are so pretty!!! I'm dying, I've been listening to many girl in red songs and they got me thinking that girls are pretty as fuck, while I was listening to her songs and thinking about how pretty girls are I was reading TakeMikey fanfics, then at that moment I realized I should make a story of Female Mikey x Takemitchi lol help