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Have you ever wanted to disappear? Would anyone care? Where would you go? How long would you run? Why would you run? Who would miss you? What about after that?
When?
When did this happen?
The ice forming on the window tends to remind one of all their insecurities. They are trapped in doors, bored out of their mind and waiting for the ice to vanish, for it to suddenly become Spring so they can make flower tiaras to share with friends. Flower tiaras that weren’t good enough got trampled to the ground. Those who shed tears were pushed aside, because spring isn’t just the bloom of flowers. It’s also the bloom of depression. Through the seasons, spring blooming sadness, summer practically preaching it and fall calming it down, though it is still very much there...until finally winter. The depression has wilted, if you’re lucky that is, and a new sadness was filling its empty hole.
Sadness is key, the teachers tell me. It’s good to cry but what if you can’t stop? What if the tears keep flowing and flowing until you drown yourself, until you’re living in your own little fish tank and the fish aimlessly swim around your head, tickling your nose whenever they pass by?
What if...
Damn that seems to be the words now-a-days. It’s not “This will....” it’s always “What if..”. Well what if while you’re sitting there doing nothing, you realize you’ve practically wasted your life? What if you get into college but fail it? What if you actually are ABLE to reach your goal?
Why are the “What If”s always so negative?
Why can’t people just say “I will” for Christ fucking sake?
Is it too late to change this world of “WHAT IF” to a world of “I FUCKING CAN” and “I FUCKING WILL”?
People are always throwing away their dreams. Drop out of school to raise a kid? Get your ass back in school and get your diploma when they’re old enough to handle themselves without having to hold onto the bottom of your shirt and say “Mommy”, “Daddy.”