°•{Alphys Yumi}•°

Well... it's been 219 days since he left... they were painful days... well, I'll try... to summarize what happened in recent times... 
          
          After his death, my aunt was diagnosed with depression. She never got over him... Heh neither did I... if I had... protected him better... he wouldn't be SEVEN  PALS UNDER THE GROUND... I still blame myself... he must be furious with me... but I can't... the pain of not being able to protect you haunts me to this day... 
          
          Coming back... she was about 4 to 5 months... I'm not going to lie, she's still in that state... but less severe... she says she dreams about him... that she can dream about him smiling at her during her day to day life... his friends were not different... everyone went to the funeral... oh I didn't mention... it was a beautiful ceremony... it hurt to see the coffin being closed... an indication that... he'll never... come back... 
          
          I miss him... and... it hurts to go through his closet... it hurts... because the room still has his smell... and... it makes me want to cry... 
          
          I'm sorry... I just wanted to vent... and... tell you the least bit about what's been going on around here... since... he... left us. 
          
          And... forgive me Mari... I... can't... I can't forget him... it hurts too much... I failed in my role in protecting him... I just wish I could go back in time...

I really can't believe you left... why did you do that? Why did you leave us? just... WHY? WHY? WHY be so rude and not keep your promise?
          
          you promised us you idiot... WHY YOU JUST LEFT EVERYONE BEHIND YOU IDIOT! 
          
          I HATE YOU!... but... I love you too... and I just don't want to let you go like mom... you two promised us to live... and now you're both GONE! 
          
          And I'm alone... just me and our aunt... she doesn't leave her room anymore... she refuses to eat... she refuses to work... I'm afraid she'll abandon me too...
          
          I'm sorry my little brother... I was a terrible big sister... and it hurts so much to let you go... but I don't blame you... you suffered too much... and now you can finally hug "mommy" again... see you in another life...maybe? 
          
          And Mari... I'm sorry... I couldn't protect him... he's GONE! AND IT'S MY FAULT... 
          
          FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...  FORGIVE ME...