I feel the guilt wash over me and the terror seep in, and as my mind starts racing my heartbeat quickens. It’s 4pm and I’m shaking in my bed. I think the darkness is coming closer and the walls are closing in. I need to breathe, but the shallow waters are rising now and I think I’m going to drown. And in the midst of this sea of misery, I know that even if I scream no one will hear me.