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sorry for coming back i really need to know if im the asshole or not
vent heavy tw
so basically Rey, my (ex?)bff blocked me everywhere and said they "hate they ever cared for me" and "wish i never came back all those times i blocked them"
(for context. I have three twitter accounts, my main (nornal), my priv (in which i only had Rey) and my nsfw/vent (in which i had blocked Rey) and I didnt wanted them to know about that account.
they saw a screenshot in my priv where i was talking with someone I had told them to block (because it was someone they wouldnt like) and searched for my nsfw account, read all of my vents and intrusive thoughts and then blocked me everywhere without an explanation, i was able to ask in tumblr before they blocked me there too and they were disgusted by me, its been almost a day since and i miss them ive been crying all day and night. They knew about my hypersexual thoughts and I vented it on a separated account without them because I knew they wouldnt like it/be uncomfortable and I was actually starting to feel better and accept my trauma, they didnt let me explain myself at all and seriously they were my all. our one year since we met anniversary was a literal week ago and i feel so lost without them, i get that they hate me but i just would have liked to have been able to talk to them before begin cut off their life like this, i feel like my heart was ripped out of my chest and that i have no reason o live anymore