Scorchstar_Lives

I miss so many people on here who never returned. And you know, maybe if I wasn’t such a dumbass, jackass fourteen-year-old when I first joined, maybe I wouldn’t be in this predicament or eternal loneliness? More than likely I did this to myself after being a bit of an asshole for a good two years of my time on Wattpad. I wasn’t trying to be, but I know without a doubt that I was being an asshole to people. First impressions are incredibly vital, and I definitely did not make very many good first impressions. I’m surprised I even met people that still talk to me to begin with. 

And when I reach out to people in the hopes that maybe, just maybe someone still cares about me, only to be met with silence or reluctant communication, it truly does feel like I do not matter. Like I never mattered to them. And I try to stay active on my main account, try to talk about my stories, but the silence is so fucking deafening. 

I always told myself that I’m not depressed, that I’m dealing with phases. But this shit went from annually to monthly going into my junior year. Then it got even worse going into the start of university, where it quickly became a weekly issue. Now, it feels like I have little to no happiness or motivation almost every day. 

@Scorchstar_Lives
            
            Can confirm. 

Oh, fuck me. I think I’m having a really bad episode. Of fucking course I am. Just my kind of luck. 

@TravisChessie1990 Thank you! 

Well done

I know I’m supposed to be on break, but curiosity got the better of me and I finally got back inside my alt account.